ah well. tsk tsk tsk...
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Wednesday, December 07, 2011
Tuesday, December 06, 2011
anyway... blog strolling today is fun! :) i got to read on life stories on people of various background and lifestyle. musing at ladynoe (http://perempuanjomblo.blogspot.com) - she was having a good time with baby n hubs at cameron highland.. maybe its part of her grand masterplan to get another baby.. hihi.. then of to dayu blog (http://dayuyuna.blogspot.com) aaaa.. she was into DIY these days.. and her girl has grown up beautifully.. i like her blog.. somewhat desperatehousewife-ish.. (hey hey... she's an engineer too) and then off to diahlicious. and then off to theknot (http://aimfordsky.blogspot.com/) - first time coming here.. someone from the upper lavish side kot.. hihi.. quite a lovely couple ..
anyway, i love strolling!! enjoying other people life.. and see them evolve.. hiks hiks.. anyway..
i am off. need to start working. :)
p/s: dont go bloghopping with hatred. you'll end up depress.. comparing your life to others.. just enjoy your day and enjoy your life. i always ask myself to do that. its impossible sometimes but doable.
Sunday, November 27, 2011
love the colour.
anyway.. some tips on how to bake honeynut squash..
cut the honeynut squash into half
lay it facing down .. (oh oh.. dont forget to scoop out the seed)
put a wee water in the baking tray..
Thursday, November 24, 2011
It's crazy how you can go months or years without talking to someone but they still cross your mind everyday.
ok. now i miss aps.
anyway.. ok what a way to start my thursday.. hey its friday tomorow! and next week will be my second pay day! hiks hiks.. sgt suke..
:) anyway, things are doing good here in the office.. atleast at this moment. I am liking my work.. maybe syok sendiri.. tapi mungkin tidak.. hihi..
i still remember the time when i presented a paper on harmonics in a colloquium.. arwah doc came to me and told me.. he like the way i present the previous paper on lightning better and he told me.. a hungarian professor came to him and told him that he got one brilliant lady working for him after i presented the paper. (hahahah a way of telling me that i did not present the paper the way it should be)- ngeh.. and he only told me about that after sometimes.. way to keep your people on ground kan.. and way to push up your confidence again kan..
my arwah doc is such a fantastic man. full of wisdom.
al-fatihah. i will keep you in my prayer next to my grandparents.
one brilliant lady engineer. amin. i hope it will keep me on the ground and push my confidence to the star.
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
hahahah apa makcik merapu? well i still cant get the statement from one of my friend wrote on his wife's FB wall (they are both phd candidate).. a 3 year old need to learn to eat by herself.. as they have limited time to compensate to all her need? hurmmmm
i may get the statement wrong.. but limited time to compensate a child's need? what is that?
i have ambition.. i have needs.. i know what i want to be.. and i am working on it.. but i never said that i will need to put a little diversion on that.. to compensate for my child's need.
kaliq will be in my life journey.. he will sit on my lap while i'm reading, he will eat from my hand while i have conversation with my hubs, he will sleep on my lap while i'm watching TV.. he will want to eat by himself.. not because i dont have time to feed him.. he will eat by himself because he wants to.. he will.. he will want to walk by himself and live by himself... but as long as he still need me.. i will be there.. as much as i can..
i will do my PhD.. sooner or later.. and i hope the title of PhD candidate will not put any idea in my head on compensating my precious time to my child's need.
* i realised that many PhD candidate (especially the young ones) doesnt have this appreciation and respect towards others.. hahahah ilmu yg ada bukannya byk sgt ... tak sampai setitik pun dgn ilmu Allah.. tapi nak beza2kan org.. hihi oh come on..
Friday, November 18, 2011
semlm gi beli kaliq nyer milk kat boots.. :) ngan napkin.. skrg byk pulak kaliq ni pakai napkin.. dulu takdelah byk mcm skrg.. ataupun dulu kaliq cuma salin lampin 4 kali maks sehari.. kalau mommy teringat nak tukarkan.. gara2 mamipoko yg terlampau best!! masa pakai mamipoko tak pernah bocor.. tapi sejak pindah kat sini... terpaksa resort to something else.. yg ada kat tempat kambing bertendang ni pampers n huggies and local brands.. (local brand pon nampaknyer boots je..) ..
almost everyday abdul kaliq nasri kebocoran. sian anak mummy.. what to do sayang.. kita dah tak duk mesia dah..
anyway.. setelah mencuba segala napkin yg ada.. yg jenama boots mengalahkan si pampers n huggies! bolehlah.. tapi still tak se best mamipoko hiks hiks..
lampin 32/pieces.. dlm 4 pounds.. kaliq minum aptamil milupa langkah 3.. yg ni 8.99 satu kotak.. tahan seminggu.. so all n all.. nak pelihara anak kat uk ni oklah.. takdelah teruk sgt cost nyer..
kire kalau kaliq pakai 6 paket pampers + 5 tong susu.. less than 80 pounds la sebulan.. (jgn ngada nak darab 5 lah! kekeke but still oklah kan.. kalau darab pon.. dulu mamipoko sepaket 30++hengget pastu susu 67.. dlm 500++ utk isi perut kaliq.. n utk kaliq buang balik apa yg dia dah isi..)
tu citer pampers n belanja kaliq kat sini.. boleh la.. nak survive.. salary lebih kurang cam kat mesia.. kekekeek yg ni best kalau darab 5.. kalau tak darab.. ekceli biasa2 aje..
TAPI.. toksah tanya pasal upah nursery.. mahal gile.. kalau kat mesia pon dah rasa mahal.. cuba hantar kat sini.. kekeke kat rm5K .. tapi rezeki kaliq.. dia akan membesar kat rumah..
seperti yg mommy n daddy rancang... dah setahun baru gi skolah jumpa org carik kawan..
bila baca status kawan.. yg dua2 tgh buat phd.. 'tak boleh nak mintak mama suapkan selalu.. we dont have time to dispence on you'.. i feel kaliq is in good hand.
ok. sambung keje.. lagi 3 jam stgh utk pulang ke rumah!! yay!!!!!!
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
cant access any social networking site .. ahahaha (padan muka)
my era of berpoya-poyaing during work is OVER! hiks hiks.. well.. with the amount paid.. i dont really care.. really.. hiks hiks..
life here in glasgow.. is somewhat challenging.. i am starting to hate the weather! hahah same 'ol same 'ol.. then came to the part where i could not get malaysian cooked food that easily.. no more.. boleh-tak-kita-makan-nasi-goreng-usa je mlm nihh.. then i miss my old house.. although its not that extravagant.. but it has everything.. i miss kaliq's cot the most.. ahahahah skrg co-bed with budak debab.. dah la tidur lasak.. one night his feet on his father's face.. next my face.. urgh.. tido macam sapalah budak bertuah ni... we never teach kaliq to co-bed with us.. so it is kinda difficult.. (hopefully we can buy new bed soon)....then dressing up to work.. alahai.. ni bab paling lemah.. i usually wear track bottom je gi office.. ahahahaha i dont really bother to dressed up ke mende.. bgn mandi capai jeans.. capai t-shirt.. gi opis.. now kena pakai smart-casual.. OK! letih ok pakai smart.. sebab kena gosok baju.. ahahahaha (urghh aps has spoiled me) ...other than that nothing else to whine about..
to balance all out.. my house is a walking distance to the major shopping street.. in fact it is in one of the major shopping streets.. hah (grrrrrr geget2 jari) .. gila.. i want to have em all..
i want to buy everything.. put them all on the floor and stare at them for hours and hours..
then i have starbucks.. which is only 3 mins from home.. miahahahahah heaven terbang2 bau coffee pagi2
workwise.. i like it here.. less work more pay.. kekekek but more tedious work.. blueerrghhh means i need to do more reading.. bluerrghhh but i like it(i make the bluerrghhh sound just to sound cool.. but the true fact is i am a nerd.. bak kata budak2 kat uni dulu skema.. )
anyway.. i am making the same new year resolution.. to be debtless (at the moment i have cleared 3 debts.. going to clear 1 credit card soon.. yeah!!) so to achieve that.. i want to sell tie rack scarves over the internet.. ada sapa2 berminat ke agaknya? hihihi just to make things clear.. dulu2 i have spent more on what i have earned .. dulu masa mula2 kerja.. so dah 3 tahun duk cover balik things that i have wasted on hiks hiks.. (adik2 yg membaca.. berjimat sebelum terlambat.. haks)
ok mau solat.. (oh yeah.. opis ni ada bilik leh solat..and ada few muslims.. ) so ok lah kan.. amik wudhu kat bilik mandi.. ada dua bilik mandi kat sini.. (so takyah nak naikkan kaki kat singki macam kat uni dulu pastu matsaleh duk stare pehal minah ni basuh kaki kat sinki.. ahahahahaha)
anyway.. hubby me n kaliq are happy.
skrg nak mabuk tgk movie.. kitorg ada byk sgt movie nak tgk.. weekend.. akhirnya.. rafiddi's leh watch football at home..
oh oh.. ni lagi satu.. ASTRO supersports are wayyyyyy better than sky sports n espn sini.. cam bluek.. (ahahaha mcm tak caya je puji astro-si-lintah-darat-tu)
ok later world.
i miss malaysia sooo much.. minus the traffic jam..
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
myself and hubs always sees ourselves as normal people with yuppies debt/day-dreaming-a-lot/failed business plan/work stress/couple quarel
the thing is.. as long as we learned from the past mistakes and not to do it again (hah! sometimes you need to be kocked twice before not doing the same mistake for the third timedue to pure ignorance and narcissim) i think we all going to be ok.
i learned one good lesson not to procrastinate too much (hahahahah mind the too much) as it will result a very poor quality of work..and i learned that time will wait for no (wo)men
be normal, try new things, never give up.. is a key quality which will eventually gives you happiness.
we are at the turn of a new adventure.. its time to be debtless/make new debt/travel to places we always dream aboout/raise a child(rens)
are you ready b?
Monday, November 14, 2011
anyway... decided to take a stroll at the kelvingrove park (ahahah at 3pm stroll in the park) hihihi - autmn walk.. means you walk into a a boring wood.. with no lively colour! .. tgh jalan2.. ada plak woof2 nih jalan kat kaki... aaaaaaaa.....
nothing much to do actually when you lived in glasgow and clubbing is not your culture.. ahaks... and it get worst when.. the day are shorter and shop closes at 5.
anyway... life is somewhat good here.. altho i have to admit.. it is not as easy as 7 years ago when i was here... being a student back then was easier.. ahahahahah nothing much to worry..
but i still feel a bit more relax here.. i do not need to travel.. drive my car to work and all.. my house is just 10 mins away from the office.. i do not have to worry about the traffic jams.. hiks hiks..
ok now.. when there's nothing else to do.. it;s a good time to loose the baby weight.. and kaliq is not breastfeeding anymore.. :)
wanted to loose 6.8kg!! let's do it!!
Wednesday, November 09, 2011
he is natural a traveler!!...
Thursday, November 03, 2011
well.. waddaya know.. it's all blessing from Allah.never thought that the interview will be soo calmly briefly smoothlydone. 3 interviews in a week.. monday, wednesday and thursday.. and voila.
we have earned our ticket to glasgow.
the process of getting from KL to glasgow is not easy at all.although the first part - gettin the job was miraculously smooth..
for me, the toughest obstacles was the VIsa and of course fund.
there's a relocation fees.. but it will only be paid when i join the company..and so... to move a family of three do require such a genormous amount.
hiks hiks.. the tickets alone costs 5k+, visa 6k+, gettin a house 5k+..so do the math!
anyway.. it's all worth it.. and all praise to Allah for showing us the way.
and appplying for the VISA.. it took me endless night and day.. just to go throughthe forms bit by bit..
will write about our journey later..
Wednesday, November 02, 2011
but i just cant get into my blog!! ahahahah a mishap on the blog design that i have chosen..
i just cannot find the sign in button!! sheeeeesssshhhhhhkebab!
anyway.. sorry moms.. all the item on the garage sale entry has been sold month ago!! and sorry for not being able to update the status.
ah well... I am in glasgow.
good to be back.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Monday, September 12, 2011
Wednesday, September 07, 2011
Tuesday, September 06, 2011
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Friday, August 12, 2011
anyway just a quick one.. i realised that this year my entry was too short and i have only posted around 49 entries sahaja.. kekekekeke
I am one busy mummy. hiks.
speaking of raya tahun ni ada baby kecik.. alamak macam mana nak buat persiapan hari raya.. kekekek.. me and hubs selalu beli lagi 2 3 hari nak raya.. takdelah overeksaited overthemoon nak beli kain.. tempah... beli baju siap.. bagi sama tona kaler.. ahaks.. then SIAP!!!! boleh dah nak raya....
since tahun nih baby kaliq dah ada... kenalah usaha lebih sikit kot.. kekekekeke or perhaps i should just stick to the family tradition.. buy baju raya last minute... kekekekeke
anyway.. nak beli baju apa kat kaliq nih...
he seems to have too many oledi... and would people notice that he is wearing a new clothes?
he will droll on it anyway... sigh!!!... pening... nak penuh kan kehendak masyarakat atau i just better stick to what i think is right?
anyway... kaliq dah ada baju melayu... cuma nak kena ada baju jalan je lah kot... nnt wan n nenek tanya.. takde baju raya ke.. ahahah apa mummy nak jawab..
so the shopping begin!!! ahaks..
have a blessed ramadhan everyone... should we pakai baju kaler maroon this year baby?
I am more excited nak amik family picture je nih... kekekekek
its a good month to reflect on your life really..what have you achieved and what you want to achieved,.. its a month of soul cleansing too...
I have not yet able to go to mosque's teraweeh this year... was thinking of taking kaliq along... but afraid that he will disturb others who wants to perform solah..
oh well... my teraweeh will start tonight.. at home... Insyallah. :) (sigh.. 10 days to ganti my puasa... )
have a blessed ramadhan everyone.
Wednesday, August 03, 2011
Friday, July 29, 2011
Monday, July 18, 2011
Thursday, July 07, 2011
Tuesday, July 05, 2011
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Friday, June 24, 2011
Thursday, June 23, 2011
i breastfeed my kaliq until today (ehem.. which only two months)... but mind you.. i'm not doing it exclusively.. meaning my baby is on both breast milk and formula milk. Alhamdulillah.. he has no problem accepting both..
for the first 4 days of kaliq's life.. he was exclusively breastfed.. but on the fourth day.. kaliq is not pooping plus he had a mild jaundice. As a mother, my interest was on kaliq's well being... so i called the hospital ask them to send in the midwives to check on non-pooping kaliq .. they found out kaliq was dehydrated with mild jaundice.. and that is the reason for him not pooping. i had so little milk in me plus the milk passage was blocked.. finally the midwives resort to formula milk.. ( i was soo sad they had to give kaliq's FM.. since i was soo adamant that he only drink my milk!) and right after kaliq finishes the milk.. he pooped! *sigh* i was so relief and at the same time i felt i'm such a hopeless mother who cant breast fed her own child.
that is the start of kaliq's formula milk journey, later i started to pump my milk to be given to kaliq and for few weeks.. he was on 50% formula and 50% breast milk.
to cut the story short, my milk became less and less... and now its like almost 80% formula and 20% breast milk. But i will make sure he breastfed atleast three times a day... so that he will get some of the breast milk benefit.
but today when i read on facebook about ~ baby whom on FM will resembles some characteristic of a cow.. it does hurt.. one of the ladies even suggested that FM should be made only for 6 months and above babies.. but what if a mother could not afford to breastfeed? selfish remark isnt it.. finding alternatives such as finding ibu-susuan.. hmm you can.. but you will need time and also rezeki.. Kalau mmg dah takde sapa.. do you still nak kekalkan ego want to exclusively breastfeed? and jeopardize your child's health?
i ate white carrot, bird's nest, drank fenugreek.. and chinese herbs to increase my milk.. but it doesnt help. I refuse to let my baby go hungry.. am i that selfish resortig to formula milk?
anyway, Allah knows best.. I have tried and I succumbed to the easiness of formula milk. exclusively breastfeeding your child need commitment and one more important thing.. Allah's blessing.. I salute exclusively breastfeeding mothers and at the same time i understand and respect mother's who cant.
no mothers in the world would not want to give the best to their children, but that is all in a day life.. some are blessed with milk and some are not.. either or..
it is an act of love.. to exclusively BF your child or to resort to FM.
for me i will continue BF my son and i will make sure he is full and able to grow well with FM and all i can do is pray that he will be a good man.. not a cow. :P
and to mother's who are blessed with bundle of milk .. bersyukur la.. dont condemn others.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Monday, June 13, 2011
Sunday, June 05, 2011
Saturday, June 04, 2011
This recipe was tested in an 850-watt microwave
Friday, May 20, 2011
The doctor came at 11-ish, did the internal examination for few minutes (ouccchhhhhhh!!! Kekeke its not the best feeling ok!).. with smiling face, he gave me a thumbs up.. ‘well done!!! Good job.. you are 3 cm dilated.. dah boleh beranak ni’ he inserted some sort of pill inside me and gave me 4 hours, if no active labor-ish signs.. he said he will start on IV-ish induction.. – hahaha hamek.. beranak la hari nih. at first mmg contraction tak sgt.. dgn hubby terlupa nak bg makan my precious furballs.. tertinggal charger phone... planning punya lah best.. tapi still mcm mcm tertinggal.. since i mcm confirm2 beranak lambat lagi... i asked him to go home and settled all the things...
Cut the story short, at 2.30pm doctor came in again to check on me. hubby pon selamat sampai dari rumah (nasib baik.... hiks hiks) Contraction was every 4 minutes hihi I was responding well to the pill (well done?) he only smiled and said ok! Few minutes later a nurse came in gave me poo-poo medicine (mmg wonder ok.. tak sampai 5 mins.. mmg buang habes) n put me on iv (air gula katanya… nk beranak dah!) what???!!! Nak beranak dah? ‘eh nanti2! I kept asking how many cm and they just smiled and ask me back..’ ‘err.. what did the doctor said?’..
Another nurse came in and told me that she is going to break the amniotic sack (hah??!!) next, I could feel the hot water dripping out of me, and it hits me ‘ok labor is imminent’.
Soon, I felt a terrible pain (nak beranak ke nak poo-poo nih) told the nurse that my stomach hurts and rasa nak poo-poo sgt2.. she ask me to go poo-poo. I went to the toilet but nothing happened, ok! I’m not poo-poo ing might be something else.
At this point it was too painful, I ask my hubby to get a nurse and request for some painkillers. The nurse came in with the injection; she checked on me and said I am still far from labor and gave me the painkiller, another nurse came in and ready to teach me on breathing techniques and how to use the face-mask-ish pain-killer(kot)-thingy.
I was reaching for the face-mask, but before I could inhale the happy-gas the nurse gave a shrieked.. ‘eh! Dah bukak habis nih.. letak balik! Letak balik!! Reluctantly I gave the face mask to hubby.. no happy gas! N I just got the injection..’
Nurse n doctors came rushing in.. one nurse teach me how to push (I learnt one thing bout myself.. I m not a fast learner!!)..They ask me to push, and I am not pushing at all. I took a very short breath; hence, pushing is like pulling the baby back up.
My husband was my knight in shining armor! He held me tightly, making sure that I don’t tilt my body n instruct me to breathe n push. All the nurses followed him (hihi I never knew that hubby is able to pull such a brave-act). Since, im not good in pushing, a kiwi-vacuum was used to help me to get the baby out.
It was a brief painful-experience, as soon as they put kaliq on me.. all the pain disappear and the painkiller kicks in… hahaha! I was soo drowsy.. kikiki smiling sheepishly all the way the stitching process. And that is how I became a mother!!
Special thanks to hubs. I could not do it without you. NASIB BAIK YOU SEMPAT SAMPAI HOSPITAL!!
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Monday, May 09, 2011
will write on my journey to motherhood. Meanwhile, i just want to cherished little kaliq in little life.
Tuesday, May 03, 2011
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Monday, April 11, 2011
Friday, April 01, 2011
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Friday, March 18, 2011
throughout my life.. I only managed to met few people who puts passion in their work.. My late Dr.Saleh, My Power system lecturer - En.Mustafar Kamal and my Husband.. They have this special characteristic..
Dr.Saleh and his time and endless effort in power system study.. he does not really care how much time he has to spent.. to generate ideas and solutions to the power system community.
En. Mustafar Kamal.. - He does not care if he is not a professor, a doctor or whatsoever... he has this passion in developing well knowledge engineers.. hihihii
My husband - He is a SNAIL! it bothers him if his work is not to his liking.. haha.. I could not understand him.. but i guess whatever makes him happy.. is ok with me. :)
as for me... I like what i'm doing at the moment.. and at the same time.. the work pays! ahahahah