Thursday, June 30, 2011

i have a fat baby ahahahhaahha

si bulat my love.

hmmm he loves to play with his hand..
lesser sleeping time..
haish la baby-kaliq

2 moths weigh at 6.3Kg.. ahahaha mmg lah berat
daddy pon lenguh2 angkat kaliq..
but it is sure bliss to have smile at you
sometimes feels like squeezing him hard

i love him.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Wish list

not very often i wrote about things that i wanted soo much.. but i really really really want this... really2 much...

i want to go back here.. with hubbybaby and kaliq.

Friday, June 24, 2011

yeay!!! its friday!!

:) dah seminggu keje....

dah seminggu jugak tinggalkan kaliq...

sigh.... i miss him every second.

Thursday, June 23, 2011

susu... oh susu...

i breastfeed my kaliq until today (ehem.. which only two months)... but mind you.. i'm not doing it exclusively.. meaning my baby is on both breast milk and formula milk. Alhamdulillah.. he has no problem accepting both..
for the first 4 days of kaliq's life.. he was exclusively breastfed.. but on the fourth day.. kaliq is not pooping plus he had a mild jaundice. As a mother, my interest was on kaliq's well being... so i called the hospital ask them to send in the midwives to check on non-pooping kaliq .. they found out kaliq was dehydrated with mild jaundice.. and that is the reason for him not pooping. i had so little milk in me plus the milk passage was blocked.. finally the midwives resort to formula milk.. ( i was soo sad they had to give kaliq's FM.. since i was soo adamant that he only drink my milk!) and right after kaliq finishes the milk.. he pooped! *sigh* i was so relief and at the same time i felt i'm such a hopeless mother who cant breast fed her own child.
that is the start of kaliq's formula milk journey, later i started to pump my milk to be given to kaliq and for few weeks.. he was on 50% formula and 50% breast milk.

to cut the story short, my milk became less and less... and now its like almost 80% formula and 20% breast milk. But i will make sure he breastfed atleast three times a day... so that he will get some of the breast milk benefit.
but today when i read on facebook about ~ baby whom on FM will resembles some characteristic of a cow.. it does hurt.. one of the ladies even suggested that FM should be made only for 6 months and above babies.. but what if a mother could not afford to breastfeed? selfish remark isnt it.. finding alternatives such as finding ibu-susuan.. hmm you can.. but you will need time and also rezeki.. Kalau mmg dah takde sapa.. do you still nak kekalkan ego want to exclusively breastfeed? and jeopardize your child's health?
i ate white carrot, bird's nest, drank fenugreek.. and chinese herbs to increase my milk.. but it doesnt help. I refuse to let my baby go hungry.. am i that selfish resortig to formula milk?

anyway, Allah knows best.. I have tried and I succumbed to the easiness of formula milk. exclusively breastfeeding your child need commitment and one more important thing.. Allah's blessing.. I salute exclusively breastfeeding mothers and at the same time i understand and respect mother's who cant.
no mothers in the world would not want to give the best to their children, but that is all in a day life.. some are blessed with milk and some are not.. either or..
it is an act of love.. to exclusively BF your child or to resort to FM.

for me i will continue BF my son and i will make sure he is full and able to grow well with FM and all i can do is pray that he will be a good man.. not a cow. :P

and to mother's who are blessed with bundle of milk .. bersyukur la.. dont condemn others.

my kaliq @ 14 days

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

oh baby


now i can do this to my baby! hiks hiks... life is good.


but will the nursery do this to him? will they love him like i love him? will they be extra careful with him..


Monday, June 13, 2011


tempoh cuti 2 bulan ni mmg busy...

busy dgn pantang, keluarga dan kaliq.

pejam celik... tinggal seminggu lagi before i resume work.

and one more important thing to do. I need to let go Kaliq.. and leave him in the good hand of 'nursery'. Ya Allah berikanlah kekuatan kepada ku.

i just dont know if i am strong enough to leave him.


Sunday, June 05, 2011


my pantang story is just the same as everyone else... hiks hiks... I was on my feet since day 1.. dah tukar pampers baby kaliq.. malam i gave birth to him..

I clean the house jalan2 sikit... hiks hiks... mmg lah manusia degil..

But I DO almost everything.. I wore socks until day 39!!! (with kadang2 lambat pakai... hiks hiks but i wore socks proudly for 39 days...

Bertungku and berurut.. :) my stomach takdelah leper.. (ahahahaha doctor said.. it will go away with exercise ok!!)

and i wore bengkung for 3 weeks.. ha! hows that?.. oklah alhamdulillah... sakit2 kat jahitan tu adalah...

but i am very grateful... yang jaga masa berpantang is mom-in-law.. bersyukur.. nasib baik ada org nak tlg... she heat up the tungku.. masak.,.. and make sure perut ni penuh.. so takdelah nak kata kurus time berpantang... skrg ni kena kurang lagi 6Kg.. ha nak buat macam mana tuh?


Saturday, June 04, 2011

chocolate Pudding

chocolate pudding


1 1/2 teaspoon cornstarch
1 pinch salt
1/2 cup milk
1/4 cup semisweet chocolate chips
whipped cream, optional
baking cocoa, optional

In a 2-cup glass measuring cup, combine the cornstarch, salt and milk until smooth; add chocolate chips. Microwave, uncovered, on high for 1 minute or until hot but not boiling; stir. Cook 30-45 seconds longer or until mixture just begins to boil; stir. Cool. Pour into a small bowl. If desired, top with whipped cream and sprinkle with baking cocoa.

This recipe was tested in an 850-watt microwave