sometimes i'm glad that i live in a very small world.... and i hope that i'll be forever in it.

these past few weeks i came to realized that the world i live in is relatively small compared to others... i dont have to listen to office scandals gossip, when we sit for tea in the afternoon.. the main topic is usually the world current issues.. or just listening to adib's crazy imagination or should i say.. his creative mind, and having a good laugh at uncle zain's . (yes.. he himself.. not his joke or whatever).. ahahaha i dont have to sit with group of makciks.. talking about marriage life(how do you do with your husband in bed (yucks) , scandals and gossips... altho.. i think there are pro's and con's towards it... i only have 3 cousins ( 1 is still in secondary and the other.. i used to carry her around.. so no.. i dont talk scandals to them) mommy hates gossipping and she too dont have much of a friend (a direct result from staying abroad for almost 14 years) and we dont mingle with our relatives well (ahahahaha giler bosan my family) .. and i dont talk about personal things to my sister. i have my sister in-laws to share my passion towards edward cullen. hihi thats all.. altho i think theres a reason Allah place me in such environment... i can be very outspoken. and i hate it.

:) i am grateful. alhamdulillah.

long weekend.

(the ever loving bunch of baby's famiglia... :) )

indeed it was the longest weekend ever! ahahahah ( not till sunday i realised that time flies and i need more of the weekend!)

i painted a wall blue.. attend hubby baby's classmate wedding.. send off baby messi... ohh. i already miss him.

i have found the use for the salikin sidek's corset.. ahaks.. we have outgrown ourselves.. yucks.. sgt debab!!! ok baby!! we are definitely going to do do soemthing with this overweight thingy! kekeekekkeke i shall not cook! evah!

anyway... new year is around the corner.. and i'll be spending the end of 2009 at tioxide... having a kick off meeting for a protection coordination studies.

yucks! work.. work and work..

off december! hey January... errrrkkkkk

hmmm... we are reaching the end of 2009!

updates:

cats

abang is behaving beautifully (despite the usual EVERY-bad-traits-he-has) .. he is definitely gettin bigger. and i am suddenly feel a little bit scared of him ahahaha ... its the after effect of the bitting-incident i supposed. Messi is still at home waiting for the kind samaritan to pick him up. I got him a ball to play with.. as hubby-baby said... the luckiest cat in the house... not even cookie and joey are allowed to play in the living room.. and there he was.. running here and there... bitting, jumping, scratching... around the house.. oh oh.. adik is pregnant again.. :) ...

last two days.. snowy went missing... she really gave me a fright.!!! im not sure whether she fell off... or she just trying to have fun outside. Alhamdulillah.. we found her.. actually she found abang! (i cant wait to have a house with some land to spare for my cats.. they just love the nature.. )

home

well.... hmmm... :) what more to say. we might be living one more year in KD. sooooo... i got the permission to 'touch' the house... yippppeeeeeeee atlast! im off to get some paint. put up some pictures on the wall... oh yes!

baby

still no signs of pregnancy. next year maybe. Insyallah.

shopping

no sign that the disease is going to get better... and i think it'll get worst... i have to admit... the inner urge to buy anything is very strong inside of me..

weight..

hmmm .. :) working on it! im working on it.... miaahahahahahaha

Work..

same ol same ol... im stuck in APS for life! *sigh* work meetings and anything for 2010 .. are already in... *big sigh* and doc is leaving the company... actually retiring... (hehehhe oooohhhh i wish i can retire... )

xoxo

mrs lazy bumm

cookie and joey turned 8 months.

joey taking the afternoon nap.

cookie.. is investigating baby.

we turned 8.. so do them.

oohhh.. such a beatiful dress isnt it.

love this!!!

and this... nice..

baby messi.

t'was my hubby baby that saw him. so small... wondering alone.. and when he was too near to the road.. i have decided that i have to save this kitten. Not a good idea tho. i have 5 cats at home.. and they are already a bundle of joy and a bundle of problem.. hehehehehe... so what i did.. i took baby messi's (yeah.. i called him messi.. due to the small size).. picture, upload to FB and tag every single person i know. (of course at some point FB does not allowed too many tags on a picture.. hihi (tak padan kecik kucing ni.. merayap aje keje nyer.. ).. abang of course being the alpha male in the house become restless and came to check on baby messi... ( i just realised that abang is getting fatter again...) abang is genormous.. FAT.. gemuk! pemalas...

Alhamdulillah, as soon as i upload the picture.. a friend of a friend of mine.. message me.. wanting to adopt baby messi.

next week.. he is going to live miss tania tan. and i could not thank her enuf..

the big fat abang... and my big fat arm.. kekekekke

yerp.. hiks hiks . i m still in love with him. still

haih.. fine call me whatever, but i am definitely in love with edward cullen. rob pattinson isnt that hunk at all compared to jacob.. played by tyler lautner.. (yes.. i definitely think that jacob is more masculine compared to dear edward) anyway.. i think im in love with edward character.. the 109 years ol vampire.. whom i would say.. a man that is out of this world (yes you need to be dead to become THAT romantic) hihi.. of course.. your husband do met some criteria of edward.. but none came close as edward.. he is just perfect.

hiks hiks. perfect in his own world.

anyway, mommys birthday yesterday.. :) as usual.. she's in her own world. keekekek met her for about 1 hour..(kekekek it took longer for me to bake her cake and knead the fondant) then she packed packed and leave for her afternoon with her friends.

i got her natrah ticket,.. glad she loved it. Happy 56th birthday mommy. May Allah blessed you forever and ever..

anyway... New Year is just around the corner.. year comes and year go.... hihi wait till my end of year entry.. Alhamdulillah indeed this is a good year. Hoping for a fantabulous one. we are two this year... will there be the third? or maybe third and fourth (aha!!! i am praying for a twin! hiks hiks gateiii)

praying for something else too.

two is better than 1

i remember every look upon your face

the way you roll your eyes, the way you taste

you make it hard for breathing

cause when i close my eyes and drift away

i think of you and everything's okay

boys likes girls - new moon OST

fairy tales.

i am loitering at my own expense .. heheh at home.. (yes yes i loikee) i am in the midst of a very important mission here. Baking mommy's birthday cake... i guess the long awaited december.. arent that fun at all...

anyways, december.. is a month of celebration. my neighbour hiks hiks chacha's birthday today, mommy's birthday on the 6th. My beloved bos birthday on the 7th, adib the wood borer birthday on the 14th, my baby's birthday on the 17th, ismiza's birthday on the 31st.. phuh... hihi.. people that are soo dear to my heart.

work still kept piling up. i dont know where to start.. hihihi.. feels like looking for another job... high pay.. but short working hours..

my fondant was always a success.. BUT ANYWAY!!!! i forgot that my cake is still hot.. and the perfect fondant had just ruined... haih.. so much for a beautiful birthday cake... kekekke anyway .. a lesson well learnt.

i need to start on my protection study very the very soon altho this is the weekend. but hey... still looking forward for what december has install for me.

looking for hope. somewhere.

kekekek eh jap... the topic is about fairy tales ye.. kekekkeke

here comes the fairy tales part.... life is not a fairy tales that always offered an overstated happy endings..

Cara Membuat Bunga Dip: Im Sorry

:D hello people.. i have been receiving emails asking me about the dip flowers... im so sorry... i dont have much time to post on it yet (i dont work in a regular company.. so its difficult to tell when i will be free).. for those who seek how to do a two tone dip flower. u need to deep in the basic colour first .. then drip the preferred tone colour. hope this helps.

schedule for 2010 is already packed... haih...

a report and a family day.. DONE

yep.. this is it.. i am definitely busy beyond the ordinary level.. yucks.. triple yuck! and im too tired to even think of engineering design studies or protection or microgrids....

The dreaded protection report was submitted on time.. and the family day.. i chaired this year was a success.. Alhamdulillah.

i like being busy.. i always have been busy... but lately.. i am tired of being busy.. ooowwwhhh what would that mean?

taking a 24-hours short break from work

on the way back from damai laut last week.. i was trying very hard to become the semi-demi-pro-photographer.. kekekek anyway... yeah.. we went to damai laut last saturday.. for the room inspection and meeting with the hotel management.. :) i think i dig the life of hoteliers.. macam fun.. i had enuf of sitting in front of the laptop,journals,books and standards...

bolehke berenti kerja dan kerja di satrbuck aje? boleh ke?

anyway.. the 25acre resort overlooking the malacca strait (ye ke malacca strait? ahahhaha) was ok... i like the facilities.. but i think the food can be better..

i have been working for the past 7 days straight (sat and sunday too) haih.. off to sabah tomorow. been too busy lately. and i am tired. looking forward for december.. not sure why....

Jakarta Trip Pt.1

oh yes... its the fifth trip... but its my first time coming to tanah abang... we were actually had nothing in mind for this visit.. hehehe so the sole purpose was to visit abang before he move to myanmar and taking umi for shopping spree. Despite all the news and rumors about indonesian ill-treatment to Malaysian... we had a good jolly time with our fellow indonesian throughout the trip. So you people out there should not need to fear on planning trips to Indonesia... its not the people whom you should be scared of... but the natural disaster.. i felt the friday quake.. and its really something!!

** on the way to pluit megamall for some charles and keith heels hunting... hihihihi......... im wearing the hijab and tshirt bought recently at tanah abang.. cool kan.. well if you r into muslimah clothing.. Tanah Abang is definitely the place for you... as for me.. hiks hiks im just trying or two... lets see hows it goes...

4th day.. aha! the long awaited bandung trip!! still its UMI's turf.. i bought a tshirt at rumah mode (i find that this the only place that u cud get the original branded item.. and baby got him a shirt.. ye ye.. he is not into shopping much... bought mommy the ususal kain batik for her collection..

anyway... i still longed for my ultimate bandung trip.. no shopping just simply a trip.. :D haih... jom lah baby.. saya nak tgk komodo dragon and tengkuban perahu.. and i longed for the hot spring bath... haih....

:D

Jakarta 12-17 October 2009

edisi menjadi escort kepada Hjh. Wan Maliah Binti Abdul Rahman

i will update on our Jakarta Trip as soon as possible.

3 male banshees

I may not live in a jet setting life per say, but I am quite a frequent flyer. Met a lot of different people of different background…. But nothing beats these 3 men I met yesterday. First time flyer maybe, too rude... They were laughing soo hard like a male banshee. (If there’s any.. If not they cud be the first huh…) then snores like a pig!! If it’s not because of my parents in law and my husband were there, I would definitely already sarcastically tell them about the male banshee thingy right to their faces (like I did in January.. I was soo annoyed with this men trying to hit the stewardess with his annoying banshee-like laughter.. I did asked the guy to shut it and respect other passengers)… why must there be rude people in this world. They laugh at almost everything! Even were very rude to this poor steward.. haih…

I am not difficult, but for me when one using a public transportation one must consider others..

Leena's ENgagement..

oh.. my dearest cousin to be! welcome to the family... aahahahha i wish u all the best.. :D salamat!!!
anyway, on the day.. we were told to wear something greenish.. ahahaha tgk tgk.. semua org pakai caca marba.. kekekek anyway.. oklah kot the whole lot of us are wearing green.,.. the instruction was.. to be at kak nora's house around 12.. (nih cerita cerita pasal instruction ni .. sume mai dari abg yee...) .. bg mie samapi at 10 am.. kitorg sampai @ 12 noon.. tgk2 kul 2 baru nak gerak.. aci? nasib baik ada nasi goreng kat umah kak nora..

ok.. the ceremony went well alhamdulillah.. with encik ismail screeching voice hihi but we know he meant no harm.(. suara cik yasmin pun screeching gak.)., cik wan's tetibe terjoin in the discussion... ahahaha last last they agree on everything with a majlis yang sample sample je .. Insyallah.. iykin doakan semoga semua berjalan lancar ye cik leena. Amin.

anyway.. from leena's house we went stret to bg mie's house untuk beraya... :)

baby and abg yee... MACAM org yang berpuasa. padahal abg pejal sowang je. yang puasa... :D

bg mie n bg yee.. :) kekekek the only thing that i am very unsure of when joining the family.. i dont sing!!! ish ish.. and these lots... they really can sing!!

off to dewi's... but then...

we were on our way to dewi's when baby decided to go and help his brother in law... searching for their car... Y?... because it was stolen at a carwash!!! and they managed to detect the car location via GPS. and here i am ... dah comel2 ... with my non-baju raya... round around rantau panjang looking for kak niza's wish.

oklah.. mite as well take ur own picture kan

hihi.. Raya! raya!

Backlog on entries... I figure I might just sum it up. :D

This year we try to spend in moderate for ramadhan.. :D for the past years.. I have been breaking fast with baby and the APS people (since there’s no one at home for me to break fast with)…Was with Baby’s friends @ Tropicana on the 12th, APS on the 14th and unofficial APS on the 14th.. It was great... I was busy with work until Friday… L oh.. I think that APS has taken a whole lot more out of me..

@castle

@tropicana

Anyway.. RAYA peeps!! Raya journey to Kemaman was definitely tiring.. all u can see (ahahahahahah sure baby sakit hati baca ni.. I was actually sleeping ¾ of the way).. reword.. all I can see whenever I opened my eyes was CAR! Cars everywhere!!!! (nakKena kumpul duit lah nak beli helicopter.. senang sikit.. baby citer arwah pak su ya dia dtg naik heli je.. so tak payah nak redah jam.. berapa ringgit ye sebijik helicopter.. ahahahaha DREAM ON!.. )Anyway, Spend early of the night with Mommy in Klang.. and the rest of my family..

the happy lot of no.9

cars... cars.. and more cars..

IN kemaman.. Things are not much different. Maybe because there’s only me,baby umi n abah.. : D all my in-laws are spending their raya at their spouse’s place. Umi actually ordered most of the Raya feast so there’s not much to do… she only prepares the kuah kacang for the satay.. And a wee bit of rendang.. And here comes my RAYA DISASTEROUS ATTEMPT in SABOTAGING my MIL Rendang ..(hiks hiks my mother in-law now finds out why on earth.. I don’t cook when my mom n sis around).. she asked me to prepare the ingredient for rendang and kuah satay.. (in which.. they are almost the same.. except for few condiments je) .. I sway through the kitchen.. lalala here n there.. Gallantly I told her.. ok everything dah siap.. 5 min later she asked me.. wheres the ingredient for kuah kancang? OMG!!! I was soo into rendang.. I blend the kuah kacang and rendang ingredients together!! Eiissshhh… kesian my MIL.. Kuah kacang dia tak sebest selalu… and the rendang had too many ingredients.. here are some pictures taken in kemaman..

hiks hiks with koki.

its his 4th nasi dagang!! oh baby.. 6! nasi dagang in a day!

First raya without your own family, was hmmmm.. it was ok.. although my family do spend the raya differently.. Usually in the morning we went to the mosque for Raya prayer, then off to the cemetery, then of to nek esah (my late grandmamma bestfriend) then breakfast.. then .. mama tido.. apis tido.. ahahahha I watch the telly.. kak ni off to the inlaws.. Later in the evening baru kelam kabut.. Getting ready for the sg.udang clan to came, the nek esah clan.. SAME ROUTINE EVERY SINGLE YEAR

(oh.. i wish i was there .. the ladies and makciks of sg.udang clan)

3rd raya in Klang, 4th raya in Melaka.. then the day the before yesterday.. with papa ANYWAY..i am in still my raya mood

bits from mak ets wedding in malacca
oh oh.. umie aida is marrying baby's mak teh's son... uuuu interesting

one of my fave poem

"Daffodils"

I WANDER'D lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;Beside the lake, beneath the trees,Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the Milky Way,They stretch'd in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:Ten thousand saw I at a glance,Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.

The waves beside them danced; but they
Out-did the sparkling waves in glee:A poet could not but be gay,
In such a jocund company:I gazed -- and gazed -- but little thoughtWhat wealth the show to me had brought:

For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;And then my heart with pleasure fills,And dances with the daffodils.

By William Wordsworth (1770-1850).

:) i first read this poem when i was 15. indeed.. i fell in love with it immediately.

Eid Mubarak Everyone!!!

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri from both of us.

:) i will update on my 9hours journey to kemaman, my evil effort sabotaj-ing my mother in law's rendang... :) my first hari raya without ketupat... and the ramadhan summary.

be back soon. :)

to anonymous: why make religion a taboo thing.

:) my previous entry was on ibadah on ramadhan.. and i was wondering why many fellow bloggers prefer to write about food and iftar's places rather than religion thingy. We make things difficult with religion by putting it as a taboo thing.

rather than saying 'Alhamdulillah, she realised what is ramadhan is all about' .. an anonymous reader comment 'cakap pasal ibadat tapi aurat rambut apa citer?' i am okay with this comment, but what worries me.. if there are another 1000 anonymous-like reader, people will tend to stray away from Islam.

And if anonymous is someone i know... it should be better.. because he/she knows me. But if anonymous is only a passer by.. a bloghopper.. then IT IS definitely worrying... to just read an entry.. n the only thing in his/her heart is disgust.. is definitely worrying. :) then u r a weak muslim either.

anyway, a friend told me.. sending good words are fardhu ayn, :) i am reminding myself and everyone else. and just because you have weaknesses, doesnt mean u cant talk about Islam.

to anonymous: think about the consequences, what if a person stop talking about islam because of you? hihi.. no need negativity in Islam. aight?

arent they the cutest thing eva?

kena pandang hari hari so kenan! kekekek *wink* *wink*
anyway.. :D its friday and i'm procrastinating as usual.. miahahaha .. *tiba tiba kena bendung rasa riak.. sebab i settled some things switfly* - i am good in arrester modelling hiks hiks

Teraweeh

:D hehehe i was bloghopping these few days, and found that not many had mentioned about the utmost important activities in Ramadhan.. Ibadah. Me and baby, had the chance to performed teraweeh.. not everyday tho.. :D. just a reminder to me and baby and everyone else... Its Ramadhan.. try to do as many good deed as possible.. 9 days left.. and we are not too late.

this year.. we are not doing as much ibadah as we should.. a little of tadarus and teraweeh .. oh one thing.. hehehe baby saya amat garang bila ajar mengaji.. kekek not that i dont know how.. but he would listen and corrected me when i'm wrong.. (garang okay.. sebelah tgn pegang hanger..) kekekeek

so.. cepat cepat harvest pahala peeps.

'If you turn to Him, He will turn to you, too. And if you turn away from Him, He, too, will turn away from you'

(ha.. yang pompuan.. naik je tangga besar kat entrance tu.. and make your way to the left... )

iftar @ inverted dome restaurant

oh hey.. iftar yesterday was ok. :D heheh.. we had.. hummus and naan as appetizer, briyani, grilled lamb and grilled salmon...

funny thing.. baby gi siku siku ceo of a public listed company!!! *pengsan* how can he. patutlah org tua tu duk pandang je baby...

ah well.. great iftar yesterday

little life goes WHITE

yes.. white is better. ke tak?

off to the inverted dome restaurant today. will update soon.

kuih Tart and cape training

hiks hiks.. yeap its that time of the year again.. when i will get my hand on the never ending kneading of butter and flour.. and pineapple jam! :D

This year, i am not aking much orders .. since time is very limited and i am very the very busy with work and all.

managed to baked 100 tarts for kak ngah.. hehehe
oh kak ngah, if you are reading this, iykin habes bakar tart ni kol 4 pagi.. kekekek then sahur then tido then kol 9 masuk opis... hiks hiks.

anyway... i just love baking. :D

Buka Puasa

i have to attend a crash course on CAPE.. hiks hiks.. im gonna be a protection guru.. Insyallah. *smug *smug.. but pity baby.. kene tunggu.. cowie yer baby.. have to work on saturday and sunday.. had a not-bad-dinner/.buka puasa at mailto:sutra@%20the curve. twas okay. as i mentioned earlier.. it belongst to the not bad category.. its a dinner package @ 22.90 per person.. with 6 different very-the-very-small-portion of dishes.. ayam percik, udang sambal petai, masak lemak sayur,kangkung goreng, ikan goreng serai and beef-chilli-soup. :D cucur udang (one each.. yeah.. ONE tau ONE each.. kekekeke).. dates, jelly, and drinks.. oklah... but the small portion tu yang mcm tak best.. ahaks..

anyway, had a great time with baby, altho the original plan was to have our annual iftar at Romas.. ah well.. the honey chicken tender can wait hihihi.. next.. dinner@ tropicana and concorde.

how do i feel.. ramadhan and married?

i'm blessed.

i'm a housewife. *period* - edisi menyiapkan supper for suami

heheheheh yes yes.. i am housewife freak..
this is my hubby's supper.. looks good huh?

get yourself a beef pastarmi or salami, a baguette, some mayonaisse

cheese spread and some lettuce

and voila!

busy queen bee

i have been busy! really busy.. been up and down everywhere! and havent had the time for blogging let alone doing anything for my ownself.

life in APS seems too hectic lately, i am tired, bos is tired everyone is tired.
cut my hair.. it was a disaster! -period- let me sum up on things that happened last week.

iftar at mommys:
hiks hiks.. alhamdulillah.. iftar @ mommies is a must. But this year there were only me and hubby and kak ni and abg shahrul and adhwa. apis was missing. Uncle.. i dont think he will come to no9 without any solid reason anymore.. haih.. hopefully things will get better between him and mommy. kekeke anyway, i have been stop drinking sugary water, and eat heavy carbo,, even mommy is with me this time.. she doesnt make any effort in shoving food into my mouth like she always does (explains how fat i am)

(kekeke food presentation kat rumah mak datin mmg cenggini.. kekeke)

4th day of ramadhan - sabah:
kick-off meeting @ 2.30 pm in sabah. i opted for a day visit to sabah.. no way.. i'm going to spend sahoor alone.. hiks hiks.. i have been working extra hard during the weekend (deadlines on the areva project).. i was barely awake on my way to KLIA.. bos was driving.. talking about plans for the meeting.. and my mind was drifted soo far.. i could not remeber any single thing from him.
oh oh.. i was not feeling well over the weekend.. so i was travelling with a congested nose.. i cud not take the flight preasure.. which resulting a bloody-nose-business in KK.. but other than that.. everything seems fine (oh.. i am not that keen with the person whom i'll be dealing with in sabah). bought sabah prawns. with one and only one intention in mind! :D sahoor with hubby-baby

(with only two hours of sleep.. up and about between malaysian peninsular and the borneo island.. nose bled.. i managed to cook this.. wah! ahaks.. impress impress)

disasterous haircut!!!:
i hate myself when i am in a beauty parlour! i was like.. ok ok yes yes ok ok.. no problem.. ended up with i am fully unsatisfied with my hair!!

oh!! i hate my konon-konon layered haircut.. my original plan was to get some big curls.. ended up with rambut aunty jual ikan!! eeiissssshhhhh sakitnye hati..

( i have decided to let the back side of my hair stays in a bun.. till it is long enuf)

.. okay.. i am ta the very point of sleep-typing.. hiks hiks will write more tomorow. a promise to my self. ahaks

Salam Ramadhan..

Alhamdulillah.. genap 3 tahun pertemuan kami

i am wishing for a blessed great ramadhan together..

and for all.. i hope you enjoy your ramadhan too :)

it seems that i am looking forward for ramadhan instead of raya dah..

heh.. maybe age already catching up on me hiks hiks..

while rummaging on my old pictures

the picture wasnt THAT old.. it was like few years ago.. 4 to be precise.. bukan zaman remaja pun! kekek i was 25 then.. i tod i was soo fat during this time.. how on earth.. i would know that i would be fatter.. hihihihi.. anyway.. the only thing that go affected is the wardrobe! i'm still me.. hiks hiks adorable and intimidating.. tapi tak sampai lagi tahap.. having the so-called-high-self-esteem-i-could-condemn-other-people-appearance.. hiks hiks

semoga.. Ramadhan yang akan datang ini.. dan juga program diet ku bersama mr.ADIB berjaya.. hiks hiks..

i write .. when i'm tense!

(*drool drool... i love my husband when he does this.. *still drooling)

i'm tense!

i went to work in jumpsuits.. kekek nasib baik my office takde dress code..

i hate it when i cant get into my clothes!

i had trouble this morning to get into my jeans!

it was soo easy then! ..

how can people gain weight soo much in 3 years ^%*%%!!

i'm tense..

(* i hate the non-existance of my pinggang!!!!!* and i hate my hair)

keekke pictures was taken over the weekend...

:) aiming high!

i dont always know what i want, i usually get myself into a crossroads.. where to go.,. what to choose..

i dont actually wanted to be an engineer.. not until March 1998.. :) when i decided i will not do medicine (altho i think i can make a good doctor) .. my family does not have anyone in technical.. papa is a war and tactics expert, mummy into business, kak ni into accounting, uncle was a policeman, arwah nenekwas a housewife, arwah atok was a policeman too.. so the thoughts of becoming an engineer is far from my reality-imaginary-planning-mind eheks..

all i know is dat.. i like scoring 100 in my test.. so i always aimed for 100... during UPSR.. i dont know what i want.. so i ended up being ordinary, so i statred aiming again during my secondary years.. i got what i've wanted.. aces!.. then i decided.. i wanted to go to a boarding school.. (errr mummy and papa were pmia -parents that missing in action) i do it all alone.. i climb the stupid hill to go to Pejabat Pelajaran Negeri to obtained borang asrama penuh, i fill in every form thats available for me, i went to the MRSM test in convent klang.. (with very minimal qualification.. kekekek ).. at the end of the day.. i got accepted to three schools MRSM beseri, sekolah sains muar and teknik bota.. :) i aimed high! and i got what i've wanted..

In MRSM.. i found myself disliking the environment.. my aimed was... gettin myself out of the school alive!! kekeke made some friends.. those whom i can really call friends.. and make many acquiantance.. i managed to get myself a fair SPM results.. (untuk oldies like me.. we still use the aggregate system.. and 10 is not bad at all aces here and there! alhamdulillah)

i went to UiTM to do my diploma in Power Engineering (kekkeke at this point of my life.. i wanted to do engineering that sounded the most brilliant.. electronics doesnt do it, instrumentation too so i choose Power Engineering.. ) chewah.. kiasu tak abes2. seriously i think i have this habid of doing something more! i wanted to be special.. hihihi.. yet i wanted to be humble. i dont want fame.. i just to proof myself (not the world) and people around me.. that i can be better from others.. i like being distinct!

anyway anyway.. in UiTM.. i have my ridiculous aim.. i know the grades that i wanted.. during exams i know how many question i wanted to answer.. kekkeke i am not crazy nor borned a genius.. i just aimed grades that would enables me to get into that special list.. the dean's list.. alhamdulillah.. i got all 6 of em! hiks hiks the power of aiming high..

and during my years in UiTM.. most of my lecturers came from one particular university! University of Strathclyde.. hmmm i tell myself.. "yeah. you gonna get yourself there!"and hey! i did!

In glasgow, i got really homesick! kekek chewah mengada ngada.. wasnt doing well during the first semester.. back being ordinary again.. with a second upper class result.. so i buss my ass really hard.. and managed to get first class at the end of the third year.. came fourth year.. after came back from malaysia (heheheh sorry.. yer i dont do summer like everyone else.. i went back to Malaysia... tak mainlah duduk umah sewa ramai2 naik kete jalan2.. i am the ordinary boring type.. lagipun mummy and papa kata balik!! ) i dont know wht i wanted to do.. kekekek i skip most of the classes.. so disebab kan few things.. i missed my first class by 4 points.. i was heartbroken (but i was actually okay about it)... i was crying soo hard during my final semester telling mummy that i hate studying.. and i cant take any of the exams anymore.. but hey.. i accept things that happened.. and i definitely cant turn back time.. (ayat penyedap hati.. kalau dapat first class sure dah sombong hidung kembang!) kekekkeke but it will definitely definitely make my life more happier (speaking of being ungrateful).. oh yer.. during my summer holidays.. i took a summer internship in APS (kekkeke i was eyeing this company since they claimed that they are the best in power system study.. ye ye company saya tiada competitor di malaysia!)

and i tell myself .. i want to work with these people one day! hiks hiks.. in my life i only aimed to work with two companies .. British energy.. or APS.. kekekekek so crossed out british energy since i cant deal well with homesicky sicky stupid sickness..

now .. I am with APS.. my bos said.. i am one of his brilliant apprentice! :D i loike.. i wanted to be like them.. knowledgeable and respectable! Insya-Allah

Next.. PhD-ship here i come!! (eleh.. master ni tak habes2)

lastly.. aim high.. and PRAY for ALLAH's help and guidance really really hard :)

school years..

tuesday
baby is having his weekly reunion with his kindegarden, primary and secondary school besties.. funny to think about baby and his mates.. they were destined to stick forever kot.. kene sunpah maybe... dunno.. but one thing for sure.. they stick to each other through thick n thin n they accept each other bad traits as if the bad traits is theirs..

i dont have that kind of relationship that baby has.. its not me.. maybe thats why we suits each other.. if not, one of us may have to ditched our life to be with each other.



wednesday
kekeke i find myself kept ditching my blog entry lately.. anyway.. last nite was fun.. hiks hiks.. altho i got the usual remark about me.. 'ish.. degil lah dia ni'



Friday
i took me 5 days to write an entry! kekke explains how busy i am.. kekeke anyway, i am looking for kelas kelas agama and talk.. and found out theres thsi frequent activity at the TTDI mosque..

gonna ask hubby baby for permission.. i guess.. its a good year to start and beefing up my knowledge

monday!
tada!!!! heres the entry

grave of the fireflies

ah.. i cried.. i cried over a stupid anime.. but it was soo touching.... :(

well my saturday is almost finish.. clean up the house in the morning.. do little sulking here and there.. kekekek hmmm i throw a tantrum over baby last nite over a silly joke!.. but then again.. (maybe i'm a bit overboard by sulking too much).. but hey.. i am not those people who enjoy watching the telly.. (too much).. i watched certain movies.. or drama or sitcom.. which i think attracts me.. other than that.. i am not that into television shows...

anyway.. i am sorry baby. sgt... for being such a pain in the ass... :) i know it is very hard to cope up with my little tantrums.. sulking.. drama.. but you are not making it easy for me too.. hihihi

anyhoo... i love you to bits.. and you know that kan..

bai bai bali...

bai bai bali

its not that we are blacklisted from the immigration

nor we havent got the ticket..

but because tuesday and friday meeting!

and baby's got his own matter to settled

plus the increasing number of H1N1..

we decided not to gamble the future..

and here i am.. in the office..with abundance of work to do..

and still...

i procrastinate! muahahahahahhahah

and here i am.. enjoying my bali coffee (thanks to uncle dear)

in my office in shah alam.. kekekkeke

bai bai bali

p/s: got urgent sms from airasia.. the flight has been postponed from 3 pm to 7 pm... ahaks... its a good indication that i have make the right-not-so-right-but-its-okay-decision...

Ape nak jadik la...

Found this on youtube

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hahahah...buat malu org kemaman la weh....

if youre not the one.. ;)

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away But I know that this **much** is true
We'll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Its a sad monday morning...

i told you baby, that got the feeling that she might left us. Considering the same thing did happened to my arwah nenek.... its a sad sunday morning.. i enjoyed your work and I pray that Allah will forgive you. Innalillah.

its friday and was hoping for a good durian excavation on sunday! :)

keekeke i've realised...

that life is waaayyyyy better when u were a kid!

altho my childhood wasnt that fancy..

Manchester United Asia Tour: Malaysia!

(*disclaimer: i will always be a gunners at heart... this is for you baby)

i got the tickets as a surprise for you! :) hihihi.. it was all that left.. a rm58 ticket.. :) but i am sure.. we will make full of it.. and we did!... we start the day rather late.. kekekek well saturday what do you expect.. ;) we drop first at kk to pick up salam's camera.. :) of course we need a good camera for the event kan.. tenchiu salam.. ni lah yang membuatkan kami mahu memiliki dslr..

mcm cik lina said.. its like lautan semut merah!! :) the devils are here!! hiks hiks.. anyway.. the late journey has caused us some serious parking issues.. (*me with my heels... ok its gt appropriate believe me!) we had to park our car far from the stadium and the walking took us about 15 mins.. errkkk but thank goodness for the marvelous heels.. coach ke... guess ke tetap tak dpt menandingi vincci hihihihi.. believe me.. this red crowds.. do have blue and yellow heart.. dissapointment can be heard when Malaysia XI fail to score.. and the whole stadium was soaring high when amri yahyah (ehm ehm i know van der sar too muahahahahahah) scores malaysia 1st goal.. it was tremendous fun and excitement!

oh.. there's the latest devil's no.7.. michael 'baby' owen..

us! hiks hiks what lah sayang on your face? bintik2 sana sini.. suh tutop tingkap taknk kn dh kene gigit nyamuk :)

just want to show off my devils horn :) thanks uncle zain :)

thegame was slow for us (hiks hiks) cant wait for EPL to starts on the 15th!! sudah tak sanggup mlm minggu ku sungguh sunyi :)

final score

manchester united FC Vs Malaysia XI

3:2

wehooooo!

(*oh.. due to the bombing in JAkarta.. we are not that sure if we wanted to go to Bali.. is worth to risk everything? hmm sayang ticket flight tapi! huhuhuhu.. tapi kalau holiday dlm ketakutan sure tak best.. haih)