i dont always know what i want, i usually get myself into a crossroads.. where to go.,. what to choose..
i dont actually wanted to be an engineer.. not until March 1998.. :) when i decided i will not do medicine (altho i think i can make a good doctor) .. my family does not have anyone in technical.. papa is a war and tactics expert, mummy into business, kak ni into accounting, uncle was a policeman, arwah nenekwas a housewife, arwah atok was a policeman too.. so the thoughts of becoming an engineer is far from my reality-imaginary-planning-mind eheks..
all i know is dat.. i like scoring 100 in my test.. so i always aimed for 100... during UPSR.. i dont know what i want.. so i ended up being ordinary, so i statred aiming again during my secondary years.. i got what i've wanted.. aces!.. then i decided.. i wanted to go to a boarding school.. (errr mummy and papa were pmia -parents that missing in action) i do it all alone.. i climb the stupid hill to go to Pejabat Pelajaran Negeri to obtained borang asrama penuh, i fill in every form thats available for me, i went to the MRSM test in convent klang.. (with very minimal qualification.. kekekek ).. at the end of the day.. i got accepted to three schools MRSM beseri, sekolah sains muar and teknik bota.. :) i aimed high! and i got what i've wanted..
In MRSM.. i found myself disliking the environment.. my aimed was... gettin myself out of the school alive!! kekeke made some friends.. those whom i can really call friends.. and make many acquiantance.. i managed to get myself a fair SPM results.. (untuk oldies like me.. we still use the aggregate system.. and 10 is not bad at all aces here and there! alhamdulillah)
i went to UiTM to do my diploma in Power Engineering (kekkeke at this point of my life.. i wanted to do engineering that sounded the most brilliant.. electronics doesnt do it, instrumentation too so i choose Power Engineering.. ) chewah.. kiasu tak abes2. seriously i think i have this habid of doing something more! i wanted to be special.. hihihi.. yet i wanted to be humble. i dont want fame.. i just to proof myself (not the world) and people around me.. that i can be better from others.. i like being distinct!
anyway anyway.. in UiTM.. i have my ridiculous aim.. i know the grades that i wanted.. during exams i know how many question i wanted to answer.. kekkeke i am not crazy nor borned a genius.. i just aimed grades that would enables me to get into that special list.. the dean's list.. alhamdulillah.. i got all 6 of em! hiks hiks the power of aiming high..
and during my years in UiTM.. most of my lecturers came from one particular university! University of Strathclyde.. hmmm i tell myself.. "yeah. you gonna get yourself there!"and hey! i did!
In glasgow, i got really homesick! kekek chewah mengada ngada.. wasnt doing well during the first semester.. back being ordinary again.. with a second upper class result.. so i buss my ass really hard.. and managed to get first class at the end of the third year.. came fourth year.. after came back from malaysia (heheheh sorry.. yer i dont do summer like everyone else.. i went back to Malaysia... tak mainlah duduk umah sewa ramai2 naik kete jalan2.. i am the ordinary boring type.. lagipun mummy and papa kata balik!! ) i dont know wht i wanted to do.. kekekek i skip most of the classes.. so disebab kan few things.. i missed my first class by 4 points.. i was heartbroken (but i was actually okay about it)... i was crying soo hard during my final semester telling mummy that i hate studying.. and i cant take any of the exams anymore.. but hey.. i accept things that happened.. and i definitely cant turn back time.. (ayat penyedap hati.. kalau dapat first class sure dah sombong hidung kembang!) kekekkeke but it will definitely definitely make my life more happier (speaking of being ungrateful).. oh yer.. during my summer holidays.. i took a summer internship in APS (kekkeke i was eyeing this company since they claimed that they are the best in power system study.. ye ye company saya tiada competitor di malaysia!)
and i tell myself .. i want to work with these people one day! hiks hiks.. in my life i only aimed to work with two companies .. British energy.. or APS.. kekekekek so crossed out british energy since i cant deal well with homesicky sicky stupid sickness..
now .. I am with APS.. my bos said.. i am one of his brilliant apprentice! :D i loike.. i wanted to be like them.. knowledgeable and respectable! Insya-Allah
Next.. PhD-ship here i come!! (eleh.. master ni tak habes2)
lastly.. aim high.. and PRAY for ALLAH's help and guidance really really hard :)