Alhamdulillah I am now a mother!

hihi lamanya dah tinggalkan blog nih... it should have been my life journal.. but heck.. life was put on hold.. for my little baby kaliq..

will write on my journey to motherhood. Meanwhile, i just want to cherished little kaliq in little life.

baby was born on april 20th 2011, 3.54pm @ 3.51kG

Alhamdulillah

:) he was safely borned on April 20th 2011 at 3.54pm.

are you ready b? lets go and get 'em!!!

the fact that i am very anxious about wednesday i am also very excited. I cant wait to hold my baby in my hand.. and start a new phase of life with my hubby. AHaks.. now i dont want to think about getting pregnant again (not in the very near future) but i do want to have LOADS of children.. (hiks hiks... lap peluh tu baby) .. and so .. wednesday will marked a new day in my life, Insyallah. I am praying for a safe delivery

anyway :) today.. me and hubs went to catch a movie and do some groceries shopping.. lepas ni nampaknyer kena dating bertiga..

went to catch RIO today. Definitely in love with the story... hihihi i wish i can write a lot about the story and our outing activities. But i am very tired .. signing off the day..

Tomorow hubs and i are planning to do a Little bit of cleaning and resting before the big day.

I would like my hubs to know, that i appreciate him very much. for being there with me.. and for putting up with my ridiculous emotions lately and for being so patient.

I love you babe and i am sorry for all my wrongdoings, i want to be your pillar of strength as much as i want you to be my protector.

:)

oh oh.. next week we might no longer be a couple..

hiks hiks... okay... I AM EXCITED!!!!

and at the same time.. a wee bit

SCAREd!!

i might be induced next week.. kekekekeke

ok things i want to do before me scheduled outage next week

1. i want to indulge myself with fraps.. i need ice! ice! before i went on no-ice-BLUWEK-confinement

2. i want to go for a holiday (AHAHAHAHA me being silly.. giler.. mau terberanak)

3. I want to go out and watch movies

4. oh oh! my project!!! ngeeeeeee

but.. next week is like few days ahead.. !!! *grrrrrr-gigit-jari*

happy 2nd anniversary darling.

sayang,

kau dan aku pasti begini

menempuhi onak dan duri

suka duka bersamamu

dan y

ang pasti aku kan disini

kau dan aku harus begini

menempuhi setiap hari

senyum tawa air mata

dan barukan sempurna

i love you.

eceh,,, hiks hiks entry yang agak lomantik kali nih

well... its our anniversary... something that worth being lomantik about..

dont you agree..

hiks hiks...

nothing much actually,

we spent the day at the hospital for my routine ceckup!

with a very surprising news..

gonna deliver the baby next week.. Insyallah.. 20/4

oh oh..

a definite turn off..

ingat kan still got time to berpoya2

oh well! cant wait for me baby!!!

house chores

i am at 36 weeks!!! hihi kalau ikut calendar lagi satu.. i'll be 36 on sunday.. hihi potato .. peteto

anyway... almost 2 weeks tak sentuh rumah.. cuci pinggan sikit2.. pastu tido.. dan pastinya house in a very big mess... huwaaaaaaaaa....

tapi redha lah kan dah 36 weeks.. nak kemas berdiri lama lama ni kureng sikit...

anyway... last two days i was on MC.. felt a lil feverish and my right arm so sgt sgt lenguh due to the tetanus shot i had on wednesday...

i was ready to write something.. (been forever on hiatus).. eceh eceh.. then when i open the blog.. found myself went GAaaaaahhhhh!!!! i'll write later lah.. (and the excuses keep on and on and on)

last night managed to clean the kitchen, wash some clothes and managed to iron my hubs clothes... take that!! *kembang hidung yang dah kembang nih* clap clap.. gonna continue cleaning up the house

oh oh.. and baby's nursery are ready!!! hiks hiks lagilah kembang hidung.. thanks hubs.. we just take a corner of my room and placed the baby cot and his chest drawers.. :)) i am happy!!!

baby's bag are already in the car.. but NOT my bag!!! hah??!! takpe takpe rileks.. nothing to worry ada byk masa lagi...

hihi counting hours.. i want to go home and sleep.. (????) - i love sleeping nowadays.. i just cant help it.. :(

Gambar yang tak senonoh di hari Jumaat

hubs emailed me this picture.. one after another... sungguh kurang sopan!!!!

and minutes after that he emailed me this..!

BLUEK!!!!!

bad hubs.. bad bad hubs..

:p

I'm late to the office.. AGAIN

miahahahahah ok ok.. i have to admit that .. lately.. i am always late.... ALWAYS.. ahaks.. oh gosh!!! not that my boss is complaining (not yet.. or he dont even bother.. ) almost everyone came in late to the office.. ahaks..

but with the coming baby! maybe.. maybe... me think us need a third car.. 1 for mommy, 1 for hubs and 1 for me... now... i need to have a budget plan... kire jari *aaaaaaaaaaa*

:p if money can grow from a tree... kan best... ihiks ihiks...

masih isu bajet: Bajet Standard

Malay Dilemma : Bajet standard.. org kita suke letak diri sendiri at certain level.. dalam erti kata lain suka letakkan themselves at certain standard dan selalunyer standard piawai ni akan mengikut tangga gaji dan duit yang kita ada.. bila dah ada standard piawai mcm ni mula lah.. timbul hal2 antara dua darjat.. kerja halal yang 'hina'.. mcm sapu sampah, kutip tol, jaga parking.. family yang best bertata susila vs family tak best.. etc etc kekekeke lepas tu start lah.. dgn cover up yang paling best untuk meletakkan standard itu agak mulia... the statement KESIAN...

saya cuma kesian dgn peminta sedekah, homeless and anak yatim.. saya tak kesian kat org jaga parking, kutip sampah dbkl etc sebab kerja mereka halal.. and for me i respect their job... i try not to replicate golongan2 standard melayu yg lain with the 'standard' statement.. KESIAN.. KERJA KUTIP SAMPAH AJE.. hiks hiks...

kadang2 dlm usaha keras untuk memuliakan diri dan keluarga sendiri.. we are doing the opposite way..

My family tak kaya.. and that save us from being golongan 'standard mulia' altho.. my family is a bit weird.. we are very cruel to each other.. bab mengamuk, marah2 ahli keluarga sendiri (tak termasuk menantu (menantu adalah golongan yg diraikan in my family).. kesian plak anak org), mengata.. ahahah kadang2 stress jugak.. but its ok - we can choose friends.. but can never choose our family.. but we never do it to other people..

anyway.. ahahahah tulis byk2 pasal family nnt termasuk golongan nak men'standard'kan family sendiri pulak..

but the most important thing is.. i just like to remind myself.. kemuliaan only belongst to Allah.

its a bajet wednesday!! weeeehooooooo...

:) my weird family - dysfunctional and we have to admit that

edisi bajet comel

this is PO.. the new munchkin-fur-balls in the house

thumbsucking while sleeping

heh..

bajet comel lah tuh.. (and he is the noisiest)

this is hubby-baby.. i caught the picture without him knowing..

pon sama..

kekek bajet henslem

this is me.. yes yes..

kekekekek saya comel @ 34 weeks pregnant.. takde bajet2

me no go puffy yet.. alhamdulillah..

Work

If money is the only motivation for someone to work then Life would be very much meaningless. - wasted almost 8 hours/day. - Put in some Passion and Learn to really take Notice of what you r doing. :)

throughout my life.. I only managed to met few people who puts passion in their work.. My late Dr.Saleh, My Power system lecturer - En.Mustafar Kamal and my Husband.. They have this special characteristic..

Dr.Saleh and his time and endless effort in power system study.. he does not really care how much time he has to spent.. to generate ideas and solutions to the power system community.

En. Mustafar Kamal.. - He does not care if he is not a professor, a doctor or whatsoever... he has this passion in developing well knowledge engineers.. hihihii

My husband - He is a SNAIL! it bothers him if his work is not to his liking.. haha.. I could not understand him.. but i guess whatever makes him happy.. is ok with me. :)

as for me... I like what i'm doing at the moment.. and at the same time.. the work pays! ahahahah

DECAF

settling for the second best... takpelah asal dapat ubat rindu.

Thank you b.

i miss Glasgow all of a sudden..

from murray hall.. i can see the same st. Mungo infirmary from my kitchen window too

haha.. but i dont certainly missed this.. putting pounds of weight during the finals..

nasib baik putih.. bam-bam.. and hidung kembang.. ahahaha

picture was taken during my final year presentation..

i try to

i try to write as many as i can this year.. but to my avail... i seems to have lost in words..

i have many things to write but mostly the things in my head are too cynical.. ahaks..

ah well i had quite a good time last week. will write about it soooonnnnnn

baby shower...

my own baby shower!!

kekekek who would have guess that i will have my own baby shower..

i dont have much girlfriends to pull out a baby shower..

:)

it was surprise baby shower from hubby's friends..

i had a blast. alhamdulillah.

i cant wait to do this.. but

but i am afraid that the world will harm him.

:) i have been lazy!

yup i'm sure is..

I have many things to write.. but the idea seems to diminished the moment my fingers touched the keyboard.. oh well.. maybe pregnancy lazy spell has hit me hard..

i am busy actually thinking (mostly) ahahaha on how to organized my house.. before i went to labour and the 40 days confinement.

we have not prepared anything for the baby yet.. soon! hihihi for now both of us are very busy with work..

experimenting with food...

hihi.. bread and butter pudding

not baked but steam!

to reduce the carbon residue..

:) noiceee....

resepi untuk satu bekas kecik tuh

roti gardenia 3 keping stgh (hihi)

(koyak2 kan masuk je dlm bekas tu)

dlm satu mangkuk yang lain

masukkan 3 sudu butter yg cair

sebiji telur ayam

satu kotak (yang air kotak kecik tuh) susu segar (agak2 boleh tutup roti tu)

gula 3 sudu

sedikit vanilla

kacau semua then tuang atas roti

kukus dlm 30-35 minutes

hubs love it.

ha! yang ni sume hasil man vs food

my banana-peanut butter-choc-chip pancake

beli tepung pancake segera n follow the instruction

untuk bancuh the tepung

tgh masak pancake (masa berbuih2 sikit) taburkan

chocolate chip (ikut nafsu)... pastu terbalikkan..

quite messy for the first taim!! tapi jgn risau it'll turn out fine for the

rest of the pancake

buatlah dlm 4-5 keping ;)

dah masak angkat.. sapu butter + nuttella + peanut butter

then amik pisang montel.. potong bulat2 n susun atas dia..

lapiskan2 for the rest of the pancake

hiks hiks.. boleh ganti pisang with strawberry, blackberry, kiwi.. ikutlh..

tp choc+pisang is YUMMAYH!

its to die for!!!!

my microwave baked lasagna..

:)

ada 3 mende nak kena buat for this lasagna..

the lasagna..

beli lasagna.. and rebus (4 keping cukup) atau ikut saiz mangkuk

the beef

beli ramli yang tube tuh..

beli tomato puree pakai dlm 1/2 tin

bawang merah (blend)

and sedikit oregano

garam+aji secukup rasa

tumis bawang sampai naik bau, then masuk daging

agak dah tukar kaler daging masukkan tomato puree

masukkan air sikit..

masukkan yg lain

masak sampai pekat.. :)

the white cream

okeh susu segar yg 500ml tuh.. masukkan dlm 3/4 botol..

masukkan dlm periuk, pecahkan sebijik telur dan masukkan

cheese (hihi cheese ikut perasaan sendiri)

kacau all these thing

dah kacau .. baru start api..

api mesti kecik sgt2

kacau sampai sauce cream ni pekat!

dah siap sume menda..

first

letak first lasagna di dasar mangkuk

letakkan daging yg dah masak.. ratakan atas lasagna

pastu letakkan cream sauce pulak atas daging.. agak2 cukup tutup daging

n depend berapa byk sauce u ada

(make sure cukup untuk berapa lapis lasagna yang nak buat)

last sekali letak shredded cheese

ulang.. sampai kepingan lasagna yang terakhir

so atas sekali patut ada lapisan daging+cream+cheese

masukkan dlm microwave - medium heat 15-20 min max atau

kalau cheese yang atas sekali tu dah cair.. siap lah tuu

mcm tedious tp siap cepat je nih dlm 1/2 jam siap!

hihi... was trying this with Ramly's mince meat..

hmmm tak berapa best sebab daging dia rasa burger.. will try on fresh minced meat

tgk apa rasa! weeeeee

baked meat salad!

hiks hiks.. a recipe given by a friend..

:) love it.. eat it while it hot with a farmer's bread!!!

abang demam...

abang baru lepas mandi..

ni abang.. dia demam,kena fungus, kutu cacing... semua2 lah

ala kesiannya abang.. kekekekekke hasil daripada lepak bersama kucing2

uncle.. kekekke sian plak kat uncle.. rasa macam nak kena tlg uncle ni uruskan kucing2 dia nih

cepat baik ye abang!

sayang abang..

(walaupun abang suka nyanyi2 test vokal buat bising.. pastu kencing sana sini)

i want a sewing machine..

i need a sewing machine!! i want to sew some curtain for the guest bedroom and also for my baby nursery corner!

hihi.. pastu boleh sew macam2..

I HAVE A nEW 2011 PROJECT!! cant wait! cant wait!

kenapa org suka tulis sambil mencarut2 kat blog?

mencarut.

kat mana org belajar mencarut?? skolah ka tempat kerja? sebab rasa-rasanyer jarang org belajar mencarut kat umah... sebab selalu.. kalau mencarut kat rumah.. cili padi/cabai burung kadang2 lada boh pun boleh sampai kat mulut nih... hihi guna perkataan 'aku' pun hampir-hampir akan kena hukuman yang sama...

ke cool? bila mencarut carut ni nampak 'tough lagi brutal - funny and cool?' ish i dont really understand...

nasib baik lah.. kat skolah/uni takde lah pulak org yang kuat mencarut.. plus.. kat tempat kerja pun takdelah orang yang suka mencarut... kawan2 (ahahahaha yang boleh dikira dgn jari tu pun) bukan golongan org2 yang mencarut...

i'm not perfect either... but my mencarut vocab are very limited.. sebab malu nak sebut.. ahahahaa .. i do sebut babi or cilake and bodoh.. cukuplah kot tu untuk defined my anger.. kekekek but i prefer to use straight words.. yang menikam kalbu...

tapi kalau org nak mencarut.. buat je lah.. sendiri punya mulut.

tapi tak baik mencarut2 selalu-selalu... tak cool pun...

wet sunday.. Family and Fullhouse..

aduh... bila dah hujan sehari suntuk.. dari pagi sampai petang... mmg wajiblah kita panggil wet sunday...

its been raining all day.. up to this entry was made.. :)

after subuh prayer.. i was adamant not to fall asleep again.. hah!! jgn harap!!! lepas buatkan hubby milo.. i went straight to bed again.. hiks hiks... woke up at 11 something something hahaha *dush* habis sudah pagi ku yang bermakna..

harini went to checkout abang... my furballs who is currently with my uncle.. rindu sgt dah dgn budak gemuk tuh... anyway... uncle promised to cook me his special lamb claypot.. (ahahahah one of a plus thing being pregnant) almost anyone will ask you... (what do you want to eat? just tell me!.. kikikikikik) alhamdulillah... dapat rasa claypot kambing uncle yang sedap tuh...

its a fun day with family... my beautiful little family... except for apis and bib.. everyone was there.. including pakcik's family and nek esah... hihihi short story come handy here.. (pakcik married to my aunty's younger sister.. pakcik is nek esah son and nek esah is my grandmama best friend.. uncle is pakcik's best friend.. a relationship lasted till these days.. we are not blood related in anyway but it is bonded with a marriage relationship.. hiks hiks hiks )

eat, drink and laugh... i sent puan yasmin home.. and make our way back.. on the way back.. suddenly hubby said.. *erm feels like eating sumthing sweet... teringat plak brownies chillies and tony roma's nyer lava) tapi mmg lah malas nak ke the curve.. altho its only few minutes away from our home...

we finally agree to check out Giza.. hihi sebelah umah je nih.. tapi tak penah jejak kaki...

Sunway giza is ok. tu je takde nak comment lebih2.. hihi cuma rasa selesa untuk jalan n makan n bawak baby nnt sebab mcm tak crowded and pastu dia open air.. and ada kipas besar yang i think its functioning rather than only an aesthetic feature mcm byk bgnan ada.. kudo's to the sunway giza owner..

:) had brownies and profiteroles at fullhouse.. errr... ok ok aje lah makan kat situ... nnt baru upload gambar sebab malas.. miahahahaha.

i have many things in my head to write.. just need sometimes to let it out.. hmmmm bila tu?

oh! oh!.. next week ingat nak buat detail scan baby... cant wait nak tgk muke baby.. tapi nervous jugak.. but doctor kata ... its for our own good.. gi je lah check..

i need them to do this!!!!!

pic courtesy of http://gomestic.com/pets/how-to-toilet-train-you-cat/

I need my furballs to learn to do this!!!!

then my hubs life will be easier..

:) oh baru separuh kerja ku siap..

i usually have this list to do on off days.. the usual list i would say.. clean, cook and wash..

tak sempat nak cuci toilet, cuci dapur lagi... huhu baru settle with cooking n washing!!! huhuhu...

kekekek but now.. i'm resting.. sebab kaki ni takleh nak berdiri lama lama... dah start lenguh2 dah nih... hihihi -

alhamdulillah.. all praised to Allah..!!! syukur.. masih leh masak n kemas2.. with the help of hubby-baby of course.. kekekeke dia dah jadi tukang sapu n vacuum.. and cat-taker.. he took care all the furballs.. dah 6 bulan stgh dah.. dia sorang2 je yang kemaskan sangkar kucing.. hihi.. i only help bila nak mandikan furballs je..

byk menda nak kerjakan kat rumah ni.. preparation nak hidup bertiga.. the planned is to have the house organized betul2.. gonna move the office to the guest bedroom then jadikan office guest bedroom.. kena bagi selesa sikit.. nnt umi atau mama sure nak tido 2 3 mlm... and bila berpantang nnt takde lah sibuk2 sgt... (oh i'll be having my confinement at my own home aje.. puan yasmin keje.. my sister pun pantang kat umah sendiri.. hiks hiks.. puan wan maliah la.. yg akan dtg tolong tgk2.. hiks hiks) alhamdulillah.. tak harap byk pun kat mak mentua.. asal ada org tua.. ok dah.. lagipun umi dah tua.. takde lah nak dia buat mcm2.. kekekekek buat syarat penyedap hati kekekek kalau ada emergency atleast ada org tua kat sisi.. weekend nnt suh lah puan yasmin plak jaga anak dia.. ahahahahah

kalau tak tolong jaga during confinement that doesnt mean that my mom is less better than any other mom... hihi... nasib baik hidup ni i live dgn org2 yang tak kuat mengata.. masing2 faham dgn tanggungjawab masing2... tapi if i know lah ada yang mengata my mom.. mmg siap lah.. akan ku *slap *slap mulut longkang itu... hiks hiks...

i love my mommie-monstah.. ahahaha eventho she always drive me crazy and almost over the edge.. but she is my mom.. sampai mati she is mom.. hiks hiks...

juggling between two blogs..

hihi i have been juggling between two blogs nowadays! :) saja je merajinkan diri buat preggy-blog..

just for the exclusivity.. ngeee.... right now..munchkin epic journey is where i pour all my heart contentment about my darling baby... and tips and all.. (ada ke? ahahahaha more of writing down my pregnancy experiences)..

tapi when having two blogs ni.. kepala pun boleh blank.. which story goes to which.. kikikikikik

ha hamek!

whatever it is... 'little life' is still my priority.. :P

I still feel his absence..

sigh... i dunno how the boys and his wife cope up.. but i still feel his absence...

I need to have him around so that i know he will verify and acknowledged my work.. i dunno whether this understanding of mine is right or wrong.. I have books.. loads of 'em.. but i need him to verify some unclear things in my head.

Al-Fatihah.

hari bermalas2an.. sudah habes.. tapi saya masih malas!

I am one LAZY pregnant lady.. haha..

bgn pagi.. sidai baju, buat breakfast (milo, scramble egg and bread tu je) , mandi2 kejut2 hubby... 'jom pi keja...'.. sampai office kul 10.30 (ahahah hari ni saya agak awal... *clap *clap.. very proud of myself...) lama dah tak masuk pagi2... tu agaknyer rezeki (bonus) kurang masuk tahun nih... although we are in the niche market.. we r having quite a slow 2011 beginning.. aha! why is that so? since the government is no more looking for grid expansion..and T** is trying to get their engineer to really practice engineering - hence.. the ultimate office vacation for me.. but ok.. i think. its good atleast i can practise my simulations skill and do some reading before the great wave..

anyway... :) i need a holiday! huhu saya mau pigi holiday!!!

:) well while surfing looking for fantastic places o spend with wife n future baby... tetiba teringat!

alamak... insurance untuk baby belom survey lagi...

i am thinking of taking Prudential Prumychild.. :) dah ask for a quotation.. so nnt dah dpt quotation.. i'll do the review.. on baby punya insurance scheme..

yay its friday!!!

hari ini saya mau berdating sama chenta hati saya.. miahahahahahhaha

and after so long - perpisahan yang terlampau lama...

i will indulged on this..

ihiks ihiks...

bila kemalasan melanda..

i'm bored. im stuck in the kingdom of boredom! kekekekke time tgh tak sibuk nih... dulu mulut duk kumat-kamit.. bilalah boleh duduk makan gaji buta main2 pusing2kan mouse kesana sini.. hahaha bila tiba saatnyer... mmg tak reti nak buat apa...

i'm drafting a technical course schedule for engineers.. and i'm bored.. haha... so what do engineers wants to know.. hihi.. despite of doing consultation work. i train engineers, lecturers and students on technical aspect of power system.. something that might be forgotten or not even taught at uni's..

:) hihi *yawnnnnnnn* ... rasa nak balik pulak...

tup tup dah almost mid Jan..

kadang2 bila dah sibuk.. tak sangka masa tu cepat sgt berlalu..

dah 6 months pun pregnancy..

hoping for things to go well..

but the most important thing is..

as long as we are together

masa susah dan senang.

Alfa-Female

quite weeks in APS lately.. :) hihi i think i love it... NOT!... i love when i'm busy.. at the moment all that i can do is.. read read and read... and reading has become me least favorite thing.. ahahahaah call me lazy i dont care.. but reading is good!

when i started working in this office there were just 2 women engineer .. and when 1 left the company.. there's only me. i am the alfa-female.. and i am being accepted in the all-male-consultant-circle. I have my usual tea time with the boys, have my ping-pong session, futsal and all.. and this is not the first time i'm being the alfa-female.. I was the only female engineer in my department back in my old workplace too. :) i dont have problem working with the opposite-gender.. they are fine..

but I am not proud at all being alfa-female in male dominated circle.. I loss my female-relationship-skill.

ha ha... demmit.

Today.. i have another 2 women engineer working for the company, but being quite a senior (haha position dlm company structure sahaja... i'm still an engineer aka kuli-batak) i have been relocated to the 'other-side' with all the seniors.. stuck in a room.. alone. thus.. still not helping me with my women-pr problem. ahahahaha.. yes i do talked to them.. but i just do small talk.. thats all.. *sigh*

i like fashion - but my liking is not normal, I like cosmetics... i love collecting 'em but not so much in wearing 'em.... i like artist and entertainment.. but i dont go crazy about them..

i LOVE football. -period- i LOVE politic. *sigh* so this make my topic of discussion very limited.

i find many women like to curse and all.. in their daily conversation.. this too limit my circle of friends.. since i dont curse. even the word *sial - people used to end the conversation with is sound filthy to me* - how?

haha this entry is going nowhere actually.

I am just trying to figure out.. how am i going to develop interpersonal skill with my own gender.. may 2011 will bring good tries.. making friends and all.. perhaps.. ahahahah...

tapi...

i'll be an alfa-female again...

there will be a boy coming living with me n hubby-baby.

huwaaaaaaaaa

disclaimer: *alfa=alpha

hihi thank you nuffnang!

ok ok... this is not even an advertorial blog.. its a personal blog that entails our life journey together.. we decided to join nuffnang and make some bucks (ahahahaha kalau adalah) since the small traffic and we have no followers.. the blog is not intended to have followers pun... its just me and hubby!... but alhamdulillah... walaupun tak byk.. our personal journey entries.. pays out.. kikikik and we received our first nuffies cheque yesterday.. takdelah ratus2.. jauh sekali ribu2... hihihi but its cool!! you got to do your normal routine entry.. pastu leh dpt duit sekali.. comel kan.. thank you nuffies..

Gegegege hello 2011.. Nice one 2010!!!

Well folks... Surely this is the shortest year I have ever had!! 3 more hours to new year!!! Well to sum up my year... I'm busy working finishing projects and endless trip to Sabah!!! Urghhhh hihihi (hate writing using itouch!!!) :) I got pregnant in august!!! Alhamdulillah! Alhamdulillah!!! Loss my mentor in October ..... So to sum up everything.. It's a roller coaster year!! And I hope for a good start next year... Can't wait for baby to come into my life! It's gonna be hectic!!! :) and moving towards 2nd year of my marriage. I love you Abdul Rafiddi!!at Allah protect both of us and this relationship of ours. I hope I will be a better wife to you and a good mother to the lil- man. Professional interview here I come!! And perhaps a career advancement at the end of the year!! Dear Allah, the most merciful, please protect our family and give us the strength and ease for both us to sail into parenthood. Amin.

life lesson: women n pregnancy

i have been praying/trying/hoping to conceived since october last year... and always in contact with my friends.. whom share the same dream like me. one is my best friend back in my schooling years and another is my neighbour. we will share tips.. hopes and dreams on how to get pregnant.. of course... these two got married.. much earlier than i was.

and looking at my sister's condition.. she took more than 4 years to get pregnant and all the hussle and bussle she needs to get through.. got me panicked at times.. and wondering whether i need/endure the same thing like her

All praise to Allah the almighty, i found out that i am 5 weeks pregnant in August this year.. All praise to Allah.. i am grateful and alhamdulillah..

the thing is.. my old friend seems to distant herself from baby conversation and all.. :)

and thus this entry came along... :)

women out there... being pregnant is all women rights.. its no one exclusively rights at a time.. :)

i am 10 weeks later from my husband's cousins - i appreciate her overwhelming respond and welcoming gesture to the motherhood club! nothing beats the feeling of you r not all alone experiencing this.. and learning that 7 weeks later my sister in law too got pregnant - my respond was - elated!! i am so happy with the news as i knew that she has been praying and trying soo hard to get pregnant and so i too welcomed her to the club.. and i still share tips and knowledge and everything about how to get pregnant with my neigbour... :)

but i do kept my pregnancy a secret to my hubby's friend.. his wife has been trying soo hard and she has been telling me how sad and lonely she was and she too i always confided in talk with in terms of getting pregnant a.. i took sometimes.. before breaking the news to her... but Allah knew my intention and grant me ease in breaking the news to her- hubby's friend adopted the most beautiful baby girl and so i broke the news.. the day i visited her and her new beautiful baby girl.. :) but one thing got me overwhelmed.. she told me not to pity her (i wasnt underming her.. it is more towards respecting one feeling) - she said.. she is more than happy to learn about my pregnancy and she is fine about everything... she told me that pregnancy is a good thing... (alas i learnt my lesson.. :)... i will not undermine a woman again.. such a beautiful creature with a kind heart)

learning about these ladies pregnancies.. has made me more confident and happier about being pregnant... because its their right to be pregnant and so does i...

so women out there, lesson learn from this is that, dont feel sad or feel left out if you are not pregnant yet... your time will come and if its was meant for you to get conceived that Allah will grant you what you always wished for... and when people close with you get pregnant! share the happiness and not sulking over and pulling a 'you are stealing my lime light drama' ..

and speaking about rights... all i can think the right thing that we can do for preggers.. are well wishers.. not condemning her about how frequent one got pregnant nor.. talking/gossiping about preggers going over board with pregnancy and expecting babies preparation. they are the one who has to bear all the hardship and no one has rights other than wishing the very best for these people...dont shook your head if you learn that a person has already bought infants clothing at 3rd month of her pregnancy -haha.. (one of my friend in sabah.. started wearing her maternity dress at six week of pregnancy and she was showing off around telling that she is pregnant!.. haha- funny beautiful story indeed)

be supportive because it is not easy being pregnant.. be loving... and more important.. dont be judgemental... enjoy and celebrate the gift of Allah.. even if its not your turn yet.. and with Allah's will - He will grant your own child..

to preggers out there... enjoy this moment... and pray for the well being of our sisters out there.. so they too can feel this feeling sooner or later.. (i read somewhere that Allah will grant the dua of a pregger)

good luck..

who am i?

who am i?

i am a person who goes after simplicity.

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i am messy ~ tapi bukan pengotor kekeke i love being chaotic

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i am hard headed.. but not a recalcitrant..

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i am diligent

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i hardly judge people from the way they look.. their clothing, appearance, physical n such.. its plain dumb for me its too superficial... if the person is not complaining on how they dress and look why bother.. but if they were.. then i will respond accordingly :p

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i am bad tempered at times and somewhat cool at times... but usually my bad tempered and over-coolness comes at the wrong time ha ha...

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i love to read and learn new things

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i am a dreamer ~ ask my hubby.. and you know what a big dreamer i am

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i am a self-motivator ~ i can push myself back after i have fallen badly..

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i am a partner.. not a good friend...

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i am compassionate

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i am a lover - a romantic freak in plain english

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i love cats - saved cats from the drain from a restaurant from other people's house from the road... haha but too bad i could not keep em..

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i love handicraft ~ yes i dooooo

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i think i love sewing (ha ha) ~ i have been wanting to make my own baju kurung

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i like to cook but i prefer baking

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i love my husband too much

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i multitask... ~ kekekek sometimes its the main reason i let thing undone... i tend to do other thing while doing other thing.. ha ha..

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my tears are very cheap! i cried at almost everything...

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oh oh! hubby is here... continue later!

cleaning my laptop.. re-organizing...

tiba-tiba jumpa gambar ni..

suka!

Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose. ~ the wonder years

tak sihat..

si kecik (ahaha yg tak berapa nak kecik) ni tak berapa sihat...

diarrhea dah berhari2... risau pulak..

this is bob by the way... he is of norwegian forest and persian breed..

and i have been delaying his vaccination... *sigh*

i need to find time to get him to the vet soon...

his birthday!

17th December 2010

yeah.. its the day... its hubby-baby 28th birthday.. hiks hiks.. alhamdulillah.. and we get to celebrate today together.. :) . started the day go going to pejabat kadi klang! ha! jeng jeng jeng!!! i took the day off today by the way... to spend time with dear hubby.. - Finally! we got our marriage certificate! mr. and mrs sanchez are officially married y'all... h

aha! well... kenalah leter kejap ngan pakcik kat pajabat kadi tuh... and whats even worse.. pejabat kadi klang sampai dah tukar bgnan!!! ahahahahah *dush* and the marriage slip has changed too... isk isk isk... betapa lamanyer kitorg ni dah kawen and tak gi amik2 sijil nikah tuh.. now.. boleh lah dah nak frame sijil kawen.. hihi...

oh oh... sebab bgn awal sgt! and pejabat agama dah berpindah... and its friday.. tepaksa lah hubby baby campak ke Jusco bukit raja while waiting for him to performed the friday prayer... hihi dah sampai ke Jusco nih.. apa lagi.. sempatlah dapat beli long pants untuk baby! hihi (okeh berseluarlah anak gue.. ahaha before this ada baju je suar takdak..).. i bought 2 long pants, 1 baju and 2 pairs of mittens and booties (written i'm adorable and i'm genius! ahahahahaha)

that night... its the closing of my 3 days planned celebration! (since i cant drive these days.. it is very difficult to go n get anything for hubby.. so i decided i splurge on food! hiks hiks) next year lah ye sayang.. i get you something nice.. Insyallah.

wings over buffalo!.. hiks hiks ni sebenarnyer im the one yg mengidam.. ahaks but its the best.. as compared to roma's and TGI's

mine! mine.. fish!

hubby and his 10oz rib eyes..

and the finale!... i tasted this one a bit. since i'm on my sugarless diet..

16 December 2010

I asked baby... what he wants for dinner tonight.. and he mentioned nasi padang!! so OFF to PUTI BUNGSU we go!!!.. its located in jalan Yap Kwan Seng KL..

skrg dah ada byk kedai masakan padang.. sari ratu n etc.. but we liked it here.. sebab ayam pop nyer mmg rasa original mcm kat Indonesia.. :) ( i missed jakarta) and the venue is somewhat clean and cosy... :)

hihi... we were stuffed that night.. and its affordable!! :)

what we were having that night...

ayam pop!...

oh oh... before that...

some surprises untuk baby during breakfast.. haha i knew he loves both nutella and peanut butter..

so day before.. gi jalan ke tesco jap.. and get those things..

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of what i eat these days..

wholegrain. wuekkkkkkkk!!!!

beef pastrami sandwich..

:) of what i did on his 28th birthday!

will update later.. :)

celebration!!!

my yellow bunnies army.. bohoooo why! why!

urghhh.... why my yellow bunnies army! why!!!... why can you project a goal... huhu... anyway kudos.. you bunnies played well... we'll get them next time!

tgk tu baby! jahat ke tak fletcher tu? jahat tak?

malacca, an engagement and something else..

alhamdulillah! alhamdulillah! alhamdulillah... syukur.. finally my baby cousin-sister is engaged!

hiks hiks... and i love to be part of it... i love her and how she has grown.. hiks hiks.. and that tells me that i am gettin wiser (ahaks not older... but i dont mind being old.. its a good thing)

anyway... reached malacca at 3 pm.. (ah well travelling with adhwa can be a wholesome.. but its ok..) we will have our own munchkin soon.. and it will double wholesome for puan yasmin's family ihiks!!!...

.. reached malacca.. we went to uncle's apartment, have lunch.. then start finishing bib's hantaran... :) very tense night! BUT I LOVE IT.. i love it when hubby baby mixed well with the klang's-clan! hiks hiks.. i love you! and yes... i may forget these things when i'm angry.. but i appreciate you!

the day come.. thank god kak noni was superb at making sirih junjung! uish! sgt sgt... best that morning! finally all the hantaran finished on time.. and i like the final result.. the hantaran was ok.. takdelah hodoh.. and takde lah extraordinarily cantik..

my 5-months bump and cousin baby-sister bib! .. (*awwwww u were so small back then...)

that night we went to jonker walk.. to experience malacca scenic pasar mlm!... got myself a very pretty fridge magnet.. hihi... 3/4 the way... monster-adhwa.. was very cranky... hahahaha malacca was entertained by his screeching voice that night...

the next day... we went to a-famosa for a morning-to-afternoon walk.. and then went on to kak ngah's place.... - big apple... hiks hiks... Thanks kak ngah for the donashi + ice lemon tea.. weeeee

semoga murah rezeki...

on the way back.. we went to alor gajah for the famous rojak.. nyum nyum!!

:) it was a very succesful weekend with family and love ones... wedding bells next year!

me watch me hubby watch man u - at 3.45 in the morning

i know i know... i should be awarded with stalker of the month.. or mebbe stalker of the year award for being my beloved hubby dear stalker...

kekeke cant help it.. anyway.. :) yeah life is treating us well alhamdulillah.. still breathing and living .. and the baby is healthy.. thats all that count now.

literally i have nothing much to do these days.. and i'm bored..

next week i'm attending BEM mandatory course on Engineering Mgt practise... errrr.. and in the programme.. there will be part on finance for engineers... aaaarrrghh... me no likey management thingy.. ah well but what to do...

anyway... still have long way to go ... courses to attend.. pdp to collect.. before sitting for

ok i'm struggling to write ... - entering malas zone.. :) off to melaka tomorow for my cousin engagement ceremony! weeeeeeeeee....

:) Salam Maal Hijrah everyone!

hiks hiks.. its has been a very short and lazy entry lately.. why? yup because i'm under the lazy spell.. and there wasnt much things to write.. or was it too many things to write but i'm not in my writing comfort zone..

I am still trying to get used of being pregnant.. haha i'm entering my 20th week.. alhamdulillah everything went well.. but... sometimes.. being hit by the lazy spell, headache spell and etc... and sometimes i'm too busy doing other things (haha... other unimportant thing such as loitering around etc)..

haih... its finally december .. hihi but i am not going to write about my year summary just yet... there are many events coming and i tend to write each one of them.. before making my usual closing...

anyway.. i am contemplating on many things lately.. one of which... on my munchkin...and work.. kekekek but i am upbeat! really...

anyway!! salam maal hijrah everyone.. i had a great year.. alhamdulillah... .. and praying for next year.. 2008-engaged 2009-married 2010-conceived and waiting for my dearie little munchkin... good three years eh.. :))

looking for all fibre

planning your eating plan to avoid some unwanted things can be a very tough job..

so i'm off to do some groceries shopping.. anything that comes with less sugar!!! and anything that is brown... whole meal bread, brown rice.. deng!!!

*sigh*

tapi takpe.. mesti mau sihat for me and little munchkin! hihi

hihi... moving towards the last month of 2010

time really flies nowadays.. looking at the calendar... We are almost into December.. in one week or so..

hihi.. i want to clean up my office... but still takde idea macam mana nak susun bilik nih.. *sigh*

and so i have lined up few books to read.. starting with

1. Protection of Electrical NEtwork

2. Power system stability

3. Handbook of electrical transients analysis..

and perhaps.. i could come up with a good problem statement for my master thesis... Its time to hit the book again.. me likey likey... and do some filter design using PSCAD...

hmmm looking for next month.. :))

Aidiladha!

aidiladha with family is indeed a joyous event.. :)

this year.. celebrated with mommy and umi n abah.. hihi...

alhamdulillah.. my second raya haji.. with hubby baby.. counting for many more.. Insyallah.

hihi UPSR and A's

:) i have too many back log entries actually... starting from the day the announced the UPSR result last two weeks.. how time flies.. and i was tight up with work and reports.. *uffff.... good news.. i am off the hooked.. no more reports or study for year 2010* from now onwards.. i just want to do some light reading and practice on some simulation skills... anyway.. lets do some writing here here eih..

UPSR - is it important how many A's your children scored?

Yes!.. it is important that high achievers are trained from an early age.. its important for them to score as many A's as they can. its important but its not a must. My grandmother can only accept A's in my report card.. from day 1 in school. I must be placed in the first class, i must have all A's in my report card.. and i must be on top of my class. Which resulting into of many of her trip to school... kekeke asking teachers.. bout soo many things..

I dont know if i can be like her, taking relentless trip to school making sure that her grand children are nurtured to be among the best.

anyway, high achievers.. are nurtured and its not hundred percent comes natural. I want my children to have as many A's as they can. Discussion with hubs.. A means that they understand the subject very well and work hard to understand it, B means they understand the subject but does not memorized during examination, C mean they are putting very little effort to understand and D means their lazy.. kikikikikik

i dont want to lie to my children.. unless i have backup plans (in the form of a gold mine for each of them) .. they have to realize that, life is full of test.. and making an effort to achieve the very best is indeed important :) .. and i dont want to be selfish.. overprotecting children from the real world is a selfish-act. hihi.. its a personal statement and personal opinion... as i said before.. i cannot afford to leave them with a goldmine.. and someday.. i will leave this world.... I want my children to be able to live with pride and dignity.

:)

cake boss

omg! alahai cake boss selalu je lepas tgk ko kat TLC.. mesti terus kepingin makan something sweet!

last time it got me drooling for cream puff... and today.. it make me goes ga-ga over CAKE! strawberries.. urgh.. and cream and icing.. ish ish..

so today.. i prepared chicken kebab wrap in tortilla for dinner.. :)

very lazy to snap any picture.. but its lovely! and the chicken cooked just nice! not too dry.. and its perfectly cooked (*eceh.. puji diri sendiri...*)

anyway.. mana lagi nak dapat cake yang sedap.. terus off to secret recepi.. :) tapi too bad takde chocolate strawberry... yang ada chocolate banana.. hihi bolehlah.. as usual.. malas nak jadi org yang leceh.. sebab kalau jadi org yang leceh... maka my life pun akan leceh... hiks hiks

:) went to a warehouse sale today... OMG!!!! gila betul!!!! malaysian mmg suka gi warehouse sale... ramai gile kaum2 ibu yang rakus.. ish ish ish... i just buy things that i need... and went back.. takdelah nak gila2 borong.. dgn... perasaan ni beli dulu mana tau nnt2 nak pakai... hihihi i never do that even tgh time byk duit..

anyway.. the sale sgt worth it... first time beli brg munchkin... kekekeke sampai tak reti nak beli apa..

mari masak2 bersama pn dior...

:) ok 2 3 hari ni mmg tak berapa nk lalu makan nasi atau mende mende yang berlemak.. nak makan pedas.. heartburn lah pulak... *sigh*

jadinyer smlm buat spicy chicken *ala mexican* kekekek nama je pedas tapi takde lah pedas pun

beli chicken fillet.. pastu marinate with cumin powder n paprika n oil... lepas tu grill... ha siap.. nak sedap beli ban or tortilla bread.. buat coleslaw pastu makan mcm makan kebab.. hihihi sambil2 tunggu ayam siap marinate bancuh cream caramel.. kukus cream caramel pakai rice cooker ajer...

mlm ni pulak masak fettuccine carbonara .. lagi senang!.. beli fettuccine.. beli carbonara instant dari prego.. kekekeke i have the recipe malas nak cuba lagi.. pakai instant aje.. abes cite..

ok dua dua tak sempat nak amik gambar sebab dah kena nom nom nom...

taktaulah dah esok nak makan apa... penatnyer pikir

its time to leave the past and start fresh!!

its time to leave all the negativity and bad vibes behind and start fresh.. with less excuses and sluggishness...

http://www.schoolthemes.org/motivational-quotes.html

weekend

like usual... bglah 3 hari ke 4 hari ke.. my weekend still macam tak cukup.. bak kata hubby-baby.. takdan nak buat apa apa... ihiks..

on friday tu sempat lah buat project scrapbook.. bab gunting2 kertas ni serahkan aje.. kat saya! ihiks.. i'm an avid craftmaker... and i am very proud of the result hubby baby pon suke aje... ngeeee

then mlm buat dinner sket untuk baby... mushroom soup, garlic bread and jacket potato... :) makasan omputeh! why? because we are tired of the same nasi nasi and nasi...

the next day... woke up .. basuh2 baju.... siap siap... hihi minggu ni tido klang! yeay! plus siap2 mlm ada dinner IEEE .. mlm org2 elektrik.. hiks hiks.. before that went to visit kak nor jap.. amik baju batik... (hmmm baju baby tak siap lagi.. jadi kak nor bg je baju batik yang dia ada.. quite nice actually) but i prefer the one that i bought for the nikah present... cantik bgt... tak sabar nak baju tu siap, that evening gi pasar mlm kat klang beli something untuk di nom nom nom.. *again! of things that make me happy*.. balik dr dinner kt bluewave tu terkejar2 sbb nk tgk bola.. heeeeeeeee *of things that make me happy all the taim*

on sunday pulak sibuk buat hantaran planning untuk my cousin bib... getting engaged in December insyallah... byk lah mende yang planning2 ni ...

ni kire baru framework.. since the theme is actually turquoise.. hihi bukan blue turquoise tapi greenish turquoise.. in which mmg takde lah jual reben nyer di mana 2 cawangan sayangku... lapik dulang tu nnt kitorg re-bead... tukarkan bead kaler turquoise... then pakai je bunga stokin sebab senang sikit nak bawak travel ke melaka tuh... but for the sireh junjung we will surely used fresh cut flowers :)

balik dr klang... terus lepak2 jap... gosok 2 baju hubby baby sambil tengok arsenal kalah.. bohooo!!! nangis.. bgn2 dah monday! *sigh*

blowing kiss

love is..

sigh....

hiks hiks.. felt like blowing hubby-baby a kiss this morning..

so here goes..

muahsssss!!! *flip flip flap... kisses flying to find mr.hubby*

dream big.

:) i was raised by grandparents.. for as long as i can remember..

I have never been taught that money is everything...

but when time passes by... and school and friends came along... i started to have this ambition..

To study hard and be the best among the rest with hope that someday.. i can repay my grandparents deed.. but of course.. one cannot pay the unmeasurable price of love and care... and of course.. i need to work for living... not like any other that can turn to parents whenever they have problems.. i have none.. (at fifteen and you have never met either your mom or dad... you'll be thinking the same)

to look back into the years.. I have managed to achieved whatever i have planned so far..

went to boarding school.. (i registered myself.. went for the exam myself.. everything.. at the age of 15.. i went to the local ministry of education office etc)... then uni years... after 1 vice chancellor award and 1 scholarship to study abroad .. i managed to get myself a job.. hihi alhamdulillah... I am able to repay my *NOT my grandparents... too bad they have past away.. long before i went to uni..* mother...

and today... i wonder.. why do i have stop achieving things? i tend to slow down a bit.. and enjoying life *perhaps* my master thesis is down the drain because im too tight up with other studies... i am one year away (that is twelve months away before i can get my Ir-ship) .. sigh... I'm bored... I need challenge..

maybe a career change?

whatever it is... i refused to become ordinary.

but maybe this pause is good.. Allah has planned it all. (i have managed to reached some milestone in life..getting married! and be my hubby sort of catalyst more of a critique actually.. ngeeee! go baby!!!) .. looking forward for a good year.. 2011.. will be a good year for me Insyallah..

p/s: last month managed to get another debt settled.. yippeee... alhamdulillah.. sikit2 i'll be in my financial free world.